Chris' (Snake_Lady) family could use some vibes - her dad died last night.

[jennyr]

CHris, how awful to lose such a special man. There is nothing I or anyone can say to ease your grief, and that of your family, only to hope you all find the strength to get through this together - and it sounds as if your Dad raised you to have the strength. The grief will never go away, but one day you will be able to remember more of the good times than the bad.

 

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still thinking of you hun

 

[farleyv]

Golly, I am so very sorry to hear that. It is such a blow to loose a father so quickly.

God bless and give you and your family strengh to eventually look back with smiles and not tears.

 

[libby74]

I didn't notice this thread until just now.
Chris, I'm so very sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[darkmavis]

I don't know how I missed this thread, but I see it now.

So very sorry to hear the news about your dad. It's tough, I know. Sending hugs to you and your family.

 

[snake_lady]

Thank you all.

I am still detached and in denial...really, it is hard to come to grips with this, and I'm terrified to even begin dealing with it. My days go by as if I'm on the outside watching in.

I hold myself together by such a thin thread these days, only for my daughters

I've dealt with death many times, I've dealt with the cause of death on another couple of occassions.... I had thought this would be comparable to those times.

Its not. It is unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life, and hope I never do again.

There is a lot of anger, guilt, regret, confusion, sadness, shock, eventually forgiveness....... I hate saying it, but I wish his stroke 2mos ago killed him, rather than how his life did end...I think it would be easier....at least expected and understandable.

I really don't know what to do....I've built up a strong security blanket for the day I do break, with my past I know and my close ppls know to watch and reach for help if I cannot do it myself.

3 short years ago, my dad walked me down the aisle



2 days before he died, my sister was due with her first baby...sweet Adelynn was born 3 days after his death.

He died the day before my sisters 17th birthday.

His viewing took place on my daughters 14th birthday.

I don't know when we'll hold his memorial service. We need to fly his ashes from AB to ON so he can be laid to rest beside his father.

Whoever says Time Heals is full of it... our hearts only become strong enough to deal with it.

I miss him so much.