My cat died today; I am in tears. I just buried her. I don't know the exact cause, but assume a combination of factors. There were many signs that she was seriously ill; she had stopped eating since a few days. It is strange how things can go, she walked through the garden this morning (although with great difficulty), later I found her death in her basket. I feel sad that I wasn't there when it happened, almost guilty I would say. But I think that I should remind myself that I was always there for her; I hope that she didn't suffer in her final moments.
I still cannot believe that she is no longer around, after almost 20 years. It feels totally surreal, like a nightmare. I was very close to her, she meant everything to me. I loved her personality, we were a perfect match. I knew her so well, just by looking at her for a second I could tell exactly what was going on. She helped me in difficult times and was always happy to see me. It seems hard to imagine that I'll ever get over this; I feel sick and shaky. I guess some of you went through the same process. Her sister died last years at 18, I still feel sad about this as well but I have to say that the presence of her sister (who died today) helped me a lot. Now I no longer have any cats. I am thinking whether getting new cats would help me get through the grieving process; although it feels a bit treacherous to think about new cats so soon already. It also feels difficult to imagine that you will ever feel so attached to other cats again, it will just never be the same again. Life can be so harsh...
I still cannot believe that she is no longer around, after almost 20 years. It feels totally surreal, like a nightmare. I was very close to her, she meant everything to me. I loved her personality, we were a perfect match. I knew her so well, just by looking at her for a second I could tell exactly what was going on. She helped me in difficult times and was always happy to see me. It seems hard to imagine that I'll ever get over this; I feel sick and shaky. I guess some of you went through the same process. Her sister died last years at 18, I still feel sad about this as well but I have to say that the presence of her sister (who died today) helped me a lot. Now I no longer have any cats. I am thinking whether getting new cats would help me get through the grieving process; although it feels a bit treacherous to think about new cats so soon already. It also feels difficult to imagine that you will ever feel so attached to other cats again, it will just never be the same again. Life can be so harsh...