I'm a wreck and I hate myself tonight. After weeks working with these two feral kittens (and they really were feral in every sense, even though they were young when captured) they finally got to the point where they were adoptable.
Amazingly brave though frightened, loving though abused, they learned to play like other kittens. They approached me when I came into their room and ate from my lap. I miss them and I feel so badly that I couldn't save them.
And all because of a lack of a little money. I am quitting working for the program for which I was fostering kittens. The woman who runs it is a multi millionaire but wouldn't spend a little money for their treatment. I, on a fixed income, had already gotten them treated for a bacterial infection and they recovered in record time. Finally feeling better, they were more playful and engaged than ever. Then I noticed Shadow (the black one) had what looked like ringworm.
It's a long story, but I couldn't even get the program's vet to stick him under the lamp to maybe give me a definitive diagnosis. He may not even have had ringworm, I don't know. But I had to get them out of my house and get started on cleaning it so I don't get an outbreak with all the other cats of my own.
I brought them to animal control. The way it works is you bring them to animal control then you call a no kill rescue shelter to go over and pick them up.
But they put them both to sleep immediately. I went back today to retrieve them myself. The rescue was filled completely due to the time of year and flooding we've had. They didn't even hold them for 72 hours. I've been trying to reach someone there to find out why!!! Did they have cancer or some horrible disease I didn't know about?
After all they went through, they became happy, hopeful kittens, now they are just gone.
I'm done with fostering for the program I was working for as a volunteer. I am requesting reimbursement for my expenses even. I figure if the program couldn't have shelled out a few bucks to save the lives of two beautiful cats I cared about, then I want it to pay me for the food and litter I was promised when I started doing this work, but never received. Because I have another cat who is sick, vaccinations, etc., I am beyond broke this month or I would've paid for treatment myself.
I'm beyond inconsolable. What a disaster. These were two adorable feral kittens. I miss them so much.