I read a lot about this case, and watched a two-hour documentary on it, too. This woman cried out for help so many times, was told after her third child she should never have any more children, and they just kept getting pregnant because her husband had such intense religious beliefs that he could not conceive of using any form of contraception. This was not an isolated incidence of mental illness or one case of post-natal depression. This was years of depression following the birth of her first child, attempted suicides, hospitalisation, medication and a very simple, basic failure of the authorities, doctors, and this poor woman's family to look after her and those children properly before something like this inevitably happened.
Suffering from a mental illness myself, I know first-hand how crazy it can make you feel. I tried to kill myself twice when I was younger, both times knowing full well I didn't want to die, however I was unable to stop myself. THAT is the scary part of mental illness - the part of you that is rational and should be stopping your behaviour is totally overruled by the sick part of you, and you literally watch yourself undertaking harmful behaviours being unable to do anything about it. And also, you can be quite rational and ok, and the next second, literally, you have taken 250 tablets and have no idea why you did it, and having no way of stopping yourself, feel totally helpless.
To anyone who vilifies others who have suffered or are suffering from a long, protracted mental illness (especially those who have hurt themselves or others) who say, `its all very well to have a mental illness BUT', I invite you to spend just five minutes inside the mind of someone who is mentally ill, and that would be enough to scare you out of ever making that kind of comment again. Its crazy, its out of control, and its terrifying. That's the whole point of mental illness - you have no control over it, or your behaviour. If you did, it wouldn't be an illness, now, would it? Its as impossible to talk yourself out of a psychotic episode and the behaviour that results from it, as it is impossible to talk yourself out of an asthma attack, or an insulin spike, or any other illness. Its just that the symptoms of mental illness are behavioural, not just physical - but it doesn't make it any more controllable.
Incidentally, its not like she got off scott-free. She has been committed to an institution and has lost all of her children - and has to live the rest of her days, particularly once she gets better (if she ever does) and can recognise the enormity of what she's done, knowing it was her that killed them. That is the worst punishment I can think of, the worst of all.
Suffering from a mental illness myself, I know first-hand how crazy it can make you feel. I tried to kill myself twice when I was younger, both times knowing full well I didn't want to die, however I was unable to stop myself. THAT is the scary part of mental illness - the part of you that is rational and should be stopping your behaviour is totally overruled by the sick part of you, and you literally watch yourself undertaking harmful behaviours being unable to do anything about it. And also, you can be quite rational and ok, and the next second, literally, you have taken 250 tablets and have no idea why you did it, and having no way of stopping yourself, feel totally helpless.
To anyone who vilifies others who have suffered or are suffering from a long, protracted mental illness (especially those who have hurt themselves or others) who say, `its all very well to have a mental illness BUT', I invite you to spend just five minutes inside the mind of someone who is mentally ill, and that would be enough to scare you out of ever making that kind of comment again. Its crazy, its out of control, and its terrifying. That's the whole point of mental illness - you have no control over it, or your behaviour. If you did, it wouldn't be an illness, now, would it? Its as impossible to talk yourself out of a psychotic episode and the behaviour that results from it, as it is impossible to talk yourself out of an asthma attack, or an insulin spike, or any other illness. Its just that the symptoms of mental illness are behavioural, not just physical - but it doesn't make it any more controllable.
Incidentally, its not like she got off scott-free. She has been committed to an institution and has lost all of her children - and has to live the rest of her days, particularly once she gets better (if she ever does) and can recognise the enormity of what she's done, knowing it was her that killed them. That is the worst punishment I can think of, the worst of all.












