Update on my baby Lenny

Unfortunately Lenny seems to have take a turn for the worse. My wife and I hired a Vet Tech to administer his meds and try to feed him while we took a two day vacation to Big Sur last weeekend. Although eh seemed rather sick and vomited last Thursday and Friday and would barely eat on Sat AM, we decided to go away anyway instead of staying at home and crying.

When we came home Lenny was a bit more later but noticibly smaller and lethargic.

I can not express the grief and pain and depression that I am feeling right now. On top fo his illnesss, we are moving on Saturday to a new apartment and my other two boys are going nuts. I guess I just have the worst luck in the world here in terms of timing . I spoke with my wonderful vet yesterday for about 45 minutes and I still don't know what to do. She said that a new pain killer may help him, but I dunno.

I wish could find a support group here in SF of other people who may be experiencing the same thing as we are. There is a Pet Loss support group next Tue that I plan on attending, but I am a bit reserved to do so if he is still with us, as i seee it as a bad omen.

If everyone out there can please send you positive vibes to Lenny I would really appreciate it.

AIthough today is my 2 Year Anniversay at work, along with my yearly review, I am so so sad right now, and unable to think about anything else that I am about to ask my boss if I can go home and lay with him , and give him all of the love and support he has given to our family

Thanks for reading.

Oh I am so sorry for what you're going through! I am sending tons of good vibes for Lenny and hoping and praying that he gets better soon!

(My smilies aren't working but I would have added a hug!)

I was waiting for an update on Lenny after reading through your other posts before. I am so sorry that Lenny and all of you are going through this hard time. Lenny is so very lucky to have so much love and support around him. Good luck to you all....

Sending many prayers to your family and to Lenny

So, so sorry to hear this.
My prayers to you, your wife and Lenny.

Poor Lenny. Sending all the (((healing vibes))) I can muster. I'm so sorry for you & your wife & your cat family.

Thank you everyone for your prayers and concern. I just took Lenny in for Acupuncture to help soothe his pain.

He is very jaundice and they are keeping him there for a few days while we move with Vinnie and Jimi. The prognosis is not good and I need to find a better way to deal with the fact that I may have to send Lenny over the Rainbow. I had to pull over on the freeway for 15 minutes and cry. He is the sweetest, most loving cat and I don't know how I am going to get over this. I am going to a support group next week with my neighbor who had to put his Nicole down last week, so at least I have someone I can talk to. I think I am driving my wife nuts, but I can''t help it. Although she is absolutely in love with Lenny, she does not fully understand my grief and pain. I just hope that I can get over this soon, as I can't afford to miss work now that I have spent close to 7 K. Lenny will forever be in my heart and on my mind and I am going to set up a fund in his name to help other people who may not be able to pay their bills. I will still be on this board frequently, as it is one of the things that give me solace.

Thanks

Howie

I am sending many hugs and prayers for your family, and for Lenny.

Howie, I totally understand how you're feeling. I lost a cat I absolutely adored 8 months ago, and I'm still grieving over her. The smallest thing brings me to tears; her birthday was last month and I spent most of the day crying. I've never had this kind of reaction to losing one of my kitties before, and it astounds me. Obviously, you & Lenny have an incredible bond, and this emotional reaction is something you just can't control. Wish I could give you, your wife, & sweet Lenny a big hug. Hang in there.

My heart goes out to you and Lenny at this difficult time your facing. You and Lenny remain in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the pain medication helps Lenny and you two still have more time to share together.

Originally Posted by howiej

Thank you everyone for your prayers and concern. I just took Lenny in for Acupuncture to help soothe his pain.

He is very jaundice and they are keeping him there for a few days while we move with Vinnie and Jimi. The prognosis is not good and I need to find a better way to deal with the fact that I may have to send Lenny over the Rainbow. I had to pull over on the freeway for 15 minutes and cry. He is the sweetest, most loving cat and I don't know how I am going to get over this. I am going to a support group next week with my neighbor who had to put his Nicole down last week, so at least I have someone I can talk to. I think I am driving my wife nuts, but I can''t help it. Although she is absolutely in love with Lenny, she does not fully understand my grief and pain. I just hope that I can get over this soon, as I can't afford to miss work now that I have spent close to 7 K.

Lenny will forever be in my heart and on my mind and I am going to set up a fund in his name to help other people who may not be able to pay their bills. I will still be on this board frequently, as it is one of the things that give me solace.

Thanks

Howie

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i'm really sorry your kitty is having such a hard time..will keep you in my thoughts <3 i live in SF as well... if you need to talk, feel free to PM me. i've owned (and lost) my share of kitties over the years, and i know how hard it is. will be hoping for a happy ending for you xx

Thanks again everyone for keeping us in your thoughts. I brought Lenny home today after a 3 day stay at he vet. So far he has only eaten 4 pieces of treats and a few pieces of KD, with a little Trader Joes Tuna wet food. He is now out from under the bed and sleeping next to my wife in our new apartment. Miraculously both Jimi and Vinnie have adjusted well to the change and their new apartment (boxes, and more boxes)- with 2 cat posts and 100 toys thrown in next to the sunny window.

I am just hoping the Fentynal patch is calming Lenny and he does not vomit tonight. We have to take him back on Wed to get the patch removed and then make the decision. I am hoping to speak with a Psychic (if you were) about the possibility that he may improve. My vet, - honestly the best, most caring vet (and her staff as well), have been excellent at taking care of Lenny and spending so much time with me in the office and in the phone. I am staying home with him tomorrow again and watching his every move.

I'll report back tomorrow as soon as I can
Good Night

Lenny, baby, I'm praying for you and my girls and I send you and your Daddy special comforting hugs and snuggles tonight.

I'm so very sorry, Howie, that you're going through this terrible time with your baby. I do not claim to know the pain you're experiencing, but I do know the feeling of loving a little furry baby girl more than life itself, the determination to move heaven and earth if that's what it takes to keep her happy and healthy, and I know the deep empty pain of grief. I say this now only because we want you to know that we're here for you and Lenny. We share the love you feel for your little boy. Please know we're here to support you when you need to talk.

Stephanie

Hello,

Well the move across San Francisco with our babies went rather well. Both my neurotic Ragdoll Vinnie and his cute brother Jimi came right out of their carriers and were running around the new hard wood floor apartment within minutes. Lenny went to the hospital on Friday night before we moved for an acupuncture appointment. The vet checked him out, went over his long history and realized he was very jaundiced. So, we admitted him over the weekend. On Sunday when we went to visit him, he was on the Fentynal patch and was rather out of it. They said he ate a little and only vomited once. On Monday, I spent about 45 mins with him in a room and he "wanted t o go to his new home, I could tell. So I took him home and on the way home I stopped at the Taco Bell on the beach in Pacifica and got a burrito (i haven't eaten much since he has been sick). To make a long story short, he was talking and ravenous with his appetite, so i fed him 3 little pieces of meat which he ate gleefully in his carrier , which was right next to me. He then seemed like he wanted more, so I pulled out a few treats and he ate them so viciously, that he bit my finger , twice ! I was so happy. Then for the next 5 days or so, he was getting used to his new space, cleaning himself, and even hanging with Jimi like old times for a bit. He ate wet and KD dry and a bunch of treats. I have continued with his fluids and meds in the evening and he seemed to be like the "miracle cat" i have had dream about for the past few nights. This also improved my depression and anxiety and I actually unpacked about 1/2 of my stuff.

As I write this message though, Lenny has unfortunately turned around again He vomited on Sat night and then again today , both food and bile. He ate a little wet and some treats for my wife this AM, but when I came home I found three piles of vomit. He is now right next to me under the table and I am at a loss.

I attended a very heart-wrenching but meaningful Pet Loss support group at the SFSPCA which brought some things into perspective, in regards to the final question we must all ask ourselves "quality of life." That is what I am grappling with right now. I know Lenny better than anyone, and while he is not looking good for 2 1/2 days now, I don't know if his QOL is just having a setback, or if it is time for me to let him go. No matter how much I think I need to do what "feels right" and what's best for him, I had this sense all week that he had some more will left in him. Now, I am beginning to wonder if the pain is going to be any different if I make the decision sooner, or If I just keep spending the money, etc. By the way he did have another Acupuncture visit before we left the other day, and I truly believe it did help his pain and his overall energy. Like I have mentioned before, the vet office I go to now is truly unique and have done everything they can for him. I am truly grateful that I found them. Now I am going to lay on the floor with Lenny for a while and try to figure out what he is feeling.

Thank you all for listening and for your support and well-wishes. I will b back on here either later today or tomorrow.

Poor Lenny; it's been a real roller-coaster for him. I believe that if his time had come, you wouldn't have any questions. You say you know him better than anyone--let that be your guide. Obviously, only you & your wife can come to that decision, but if you're questioning yourself I don't think you're ready. It sounds as if you & Lenny are very much in sync. If you're not 100% positive that letting him go is the right thing, you're bound to feel guilty about it afterwards.
I wish you didn't have this choice to make, but I know you'll do what you feel is right for your boy. (((big hugs))) coming to you