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She died this morning....I was woken up by my cat howling, it was terrible! I feel sooo bad. We are burying her this morning, we are taking the dead kitten to the vet this morn to figure out what she died from.
 
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I think I made have killed her by force feeding her yesterday. She has not been doing well since she was born. Angel did a good job taking care of her, but I often noticed the gray kitten was always by herself in a corner, rarely she was with the mom or the other kittens. The vet said something was wrong inside of her, she lost .6 oz in a week. I feel so awful, I feel sooo bad, I wish I left her alone, I wish I did not try to feed the kitten. I wish I just left her alone. She has not been eatting much and I was very concern. I took her into my hands and I feel like I killed her. When she died I saw milky white stuff coming out of her nose, eyes and mouth. I really wish I did not force feed her. I threw away the bottle and stuff, I vow I will not feed another animal again. The next time my animals need feeding by force, I will take him/her to someone who can feed the animal perfectly. I feel SOO terrible, she would have still been alive if I had not touched her. I know she would have died anyway but I wish she did not die by my hands. I feel so angry and upset right now. I can't believe it. I so much wanted her to live.
 

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Stop beating up on yourself - the vet said there was something wrong, and it is likely she would have died whatever you did or did not do. And you tried all you could to do the right thing. Sadly, we cannot manage to save every little life. And for the future, why not ask the vet or someone knowledgeable, to teach you about feeding, so that you really will be confident next time. It is an important skill for all of us who might have to nurse a young or sick animal.
 

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don't blame yourself. you tried to do what you thought was best and you did the best you could. RIP little grey kitten.
 

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Originally Posted by AngelKitty06

I think I made have killed her by force feeding her yesterday. She has not been doing well since she was born. Angel did a good job taking care of her, but I often noticed the gray kitten was always by herself in a corner, rarely she was with the mom or the other kittens. The vet said something was wrong inside of her, she lost .6 oz in a week. I feel so awful, I feel sooo bad, I wish I left her alone, I wish I did not try to feed the kitten. I wish I just left her alone. She has not been eatting much and I was very concern. I took her into my hands and I feel like I killed her. When she died I saw milky white stuff coming out of her nose, eyes and mouth. I really wish I did not force feed her. I threw away the bottle and stuff, I vow I will not feed another animal again. The next time my animals need feeding by force, I will take him/her to someone who can feed the animal perfectly. I feel SOO terrible, she would have still been alive if I had not touched her. I know she would have died anyway but I wish she did not die by my hands. I feel so angry and upset right now. I can't believe it. I so much wanted her to live.
Angel...don't blame yourself...she was sick and dying and there isn't much you could do except do your best. I also lost a kitten after trying to feed it and believe me..I also went through the exact feelings you have now. You need to remember that we are not perfect and we can only do so much. Your little gray tabby is now running free across the rainbow bridge.

Katie
 

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It can be so easy for us to take the worst of a situation and blame ourselves for all that went wrong. But the truth in ~this~ situation is that nature knew best, despite your heroic efforts. Celebrate the surviving kittens and find joy in them while you are still entrusted with their care and remember to be kind to yourself.

Sending peaceful light and healing hugs,

~g~
 
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Thanks guys for the encouragement. It is hard to lose a little one, she was my favorite so losing her really tore me up. I expected her not to survive but I did not expect it that soon. I really had hoped she would live through her ordeal from whatever she was suffering from. My cat Angel is taking it hard, this morning she woke me up with her crying. She is following me every where, sniffing me, searching for her kitten. I feel bad, but I hope I can forgive myself and I am sure I will.
I miss her too death already! She's my prescious baby.
 

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I know how you feel right now, and I sympathise with your momma cat. Twitch is my little baby, and when three of her litter died, she meowed so pitifully, and was so upset at me for taking them away. Its heartbreaking. I blamed myself, too...for not being as experienced/educated in birthing kittens.

Just know that it wasn't your fault. Sending a long distance ( I think ) e-hug!!! And lots of prayers and vibes for momma.
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Originally Posted by Jessix

I know how you feel right now, and I sympathise with your momma cat. Twitch is my little baby, and when three of her litter died, she meowed so pitifully, and was so upset at me for taking them away. Its heartbreaking. I blamed myself, too...for not being as experienced/educated in birthing kittens.

Just know that it wasn't your fault. Sending a long distance ( I think ) e-hug!!! And lots of prayers and vibes for momma.
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I appreciate that! I just feel so bad, I hope I did not kill her but she was suffering for a long time anyway. Anyway, I will be fine in a couple of days. I am just happy I have two thriving kittens doing just great! The boy kitten's eyes are open, and the gray kitten had her eyes opened yesterday. Oh how I wished she is still living! I sure miss my baby and I know Angel does too.
 

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It is very painful to lose a kitten. I would always try to intervene if you notice a kitten is fading. If they were going to die anyhow, feeding them won't be what ends it. And it could possibly save their life.

Sarabi had one kitten who was born breech, and she didn't clean him up, and he didn't start breathing. I intervened, and even ended up giving him his first meal. He grew up to be adopted into a loving family.

You offered the gray kitten a chance. Although she didn't survive, your actions are not what ended it. May she rest in peace!
 
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yeah it is sure sad to lose a small baby, I sure hate that. But I am glad for the time she did live and I am glad I still have two growing kittens to enjoy and love! I will miss her a lot and I regret not being able to do more for her, but I will be ok.
 

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You absolutely did not kill the gray runt kitten. It had nothing to do with you...so please don't be hard on yourself. Chances are, something was very biologically/physiologically wrong with her from the time she was born. You're actually fortunate that Momma cat had anything to do with her at all. Force feeding kitten was the best and most appropriate thing to do, and do NOT hesitate to do so again (being knowledgable in it, and reading up on the do's and don'ts, of course) in the event of another litter if need be.

I'm so sorry to hear about the little girl. Most of the time in kittens this young, there is no good explanation as to what went wrong. You absolutely did the best you could.
 
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Yes your right, I just feel bad. I have never lost a kitten before so it kind of hit me hard when I found her dead this morning. I know I could have done nothing to save her, but I wish I could have found a way! lol
 
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