I'm afraid this should be in the Rainbow Bridge forum..I do know that sometimes what we do as caregivers only can go so far but still I have this guilt cloud over me and I guess that I've lots to learn yet.
A couple of days ago I got a feral Mom to the vet for spaying because I and others have seen her mating and I though she was in heat again.
Her litter should be abt 8 weeks later this month. Last time I saw her 3 survivors of a litter of 5 kittens they were abt 1 month old but she hid them good and never saw them again. I looked and looked, asked around but nobody heard them so I thought maybe they died. She's pretty wild and only ate when I left, then she dissapeared. So when she was trapped (it was intended for another that needs boosters) I didn't think twice and got her to the clinic, she was spayed today. The vet thought she wasn't in heat, she'd be staying longer b/c of checkups and recup.
My guilt is that I've no way to know if her kittens were alive and if so I'm or was killing them
It has happened that I postponed spaying the Mom until I made sure her kittens were OK, etc but by then Mom was pregnant again..
I really feel bad but with no foster homes available I didn't try to get her kittens when they were around. And when I saw her frolicking and being mounted..
I got another feral that was so reluctant to get in the trap, he was neutered today also (after 2 yrs of trying!) but I sent 3 innocents to the Bridge, real sad, don't you think
A couple of days ago I got a feral Mom to the vet for spaying because I and others have seen her mating and I though she was in heat again.
Her litter should be abt 8 weeks later this month. Last time I saw her 3 survivors of a litter of 5 kittens they were abt 1 month old but she hid them good and never saw them again. I looked and looked, asked around but nobody heard them so I thought maybe they died. She's pretty wild and only ate when I left, then she dissapeared. So when she was trapped (it was intended for another that needs boosters) I didn't think twice and got her to the clinic, she was spayed today. The vet thought she wasn't in heat, she'd be staying longer b/c of checkups and recup.
My guilt is that I've no way to know if her kittens were alive and if so I'm or was killing them
It has happened that I postponed spaying the Mom until I made sure her kittens were OK, etc but by then Mom was pregnant again..
I really feel bad but with no foster homes available I didn't try to get her kittens when they were around. And when I saw her frolicking and being mounted..
I got another feral that was so reluctant to get in the trap, he was neutered today also (after 2 yrs of trying!) but I sent 3 innocents to the Bridge, real sad, don't you think
