My baby is dying and I can't deal with it.

Poor mozel is 17 and has been vomiting blood, most likely as the result of the steroid shots to make her feel good. WE gave her fluids and no food for 48 hours and then little bits of food (special) and that was going well, so I increased the food, and she vomited blood again! She vomited it last night and again this morning after she ate some food on her own! I was so excited. So now I guess I will go back to the original plan, no food for 48 hours, but I know it is futile, I know that it is time for her, she is not going to get any better and I don't want to torture her. I am so sad and upset, I guess I will try for another week, I don't want to give up on her either, It is so hard. I don't want her to suffer, but maybe she can get better, but then if she doesn't, more suffering for her. I can't stand this, I am so upset.

It is a difficult thing when our beloved kitties become old and ill. I had to help my sweet Fred to the Bridge at the age of 18. I am so sorry you and your mozel are going through this.

I'm so sorry. I hope it ends peacefully for Mozel.... Prayers for you and your family.

I am so sorry! I send hugs to you. I will be praying for you. Just know that you gave your cat a good life, that she loves you, and that you will always be together in spirit.

I know it's hard, I just went through this with Patrick (my almost 19 y.o.). He bounced back and prevailed so many times in the past 4 years, it was excruciatingly hard to know when it was time. But I did know, and so will you.

Patrick told me, and though I didn't want to hear it, I did. Loving her as much as you do, will help you do what you must because you love her.

We just can't "fix" everything.

Hugs to you during this very difficult time,

I am so sorry for you and Mozul at this difficult time. Try to just spend some quiet time with her, and maybe she will let you know when the time is right for her to go. I hope and pray that she can recover so you will have a little more time with your baby, but if that is not to be I pray that her passing would be painless.

Hugs to you Gail, and Mozul at this tough time.

I am sending prayers.. Do what your heart feels it needs to do.

I understand what you are going through. I am losing my 17 year old cat to CRF. It is very difficult to watch them get sick, and not being able to make them better. Cherish each day you spend with Mozul. You will know when it's time to let her go.

*cyber hugs to you and Mozul*

Prayers are sent for your sweet baby, Mozul, and for you.

Thinking of you

I know this is hard, but when you know it is time, you are only putting off the inevitable. Let her go on a peaceful note, you will see her again. When their quality of life is as low as it can go, then it is time for us to deal with the pain of letting go.

She has lived a good long while. Instead of being sad, you should be proud of yourself. Not many kitties get to enjoy the love and care and devotion you have shown her throughout her life. Vomiting blood is never a good sign- please find the strength within to do what is right for her.

Can you tell it's time?... I think Mozel will tell you when it is; and you'll know... my Tiger told me good-bye, and I knew; and I was only 11 then, so it doesn't take any great deal of knowledge; just a connection with the cat. Cats are so very good at communicating with us; your Mozel is probably no different.

If this really are your cat's last few days... make them special... spend time with your cat, if she will let you (some cats feel more comfortable alone). Tell her how much you love her, pet her, even just sit near her. Cats have a way of learning our speech just like we learn theirs; Mozel will know what you mean, even if you don't say a word.

Originally Posted by hissy

I know this is hard, but when you know it is time, you are only putting off the inevitable. Let her go on a peaceful note, you will see her again. When their quality of life is as low as it can go, then it is time for us to deal with the pain of letting go.

She has lived a good long while. Instead of being sad, you should be proud of yourself. Not many kitties get to enjoy the love and care and devotion you have shown her throughout her life. Vomiting blood is never a good sign- please find the strength within to do what is right for her.

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HISSY has put the truth very eloquently! I am praying that you find the strength to do the right thing for Mozel. I, too, understand the difficulty; last year I rescued a stray cat off the streets of San Diego & attempted to find her owners. Alas, the owners never materialized, and meanwhile, Sandie, the Himalayan, developed kidney failure & eventually I had to put her down. Yes, it was hard, and I kept second-guessing myself, but afterwards, seeing how peaceful it was, and knowing that I could post here on TCS, I realized that I had done the right thing.
Sometimes our heart can get in the way & then we have to rely on the advice of our vet.
As I said before, I will pray that you receive strength and guidance. Hugs, Susan

Originally Posted by gailuvscats

I know that it is time for her

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This must be so hard and upsetting for you, believe me we know, but like you said you know as well

Please look at Mozel and how she is to get the answer. Like Hissy said you will see her again one day so you have no worries there

Justs remember you don't have to do this alone!, were all here for you

thanks for your support. We have an appointment on Monday at 4 to end her life. she was hiding from me because I kept shoving things down her throat. Last night was the first night she hasn't slept with me in 17 years when I was home. I brought her on the bed this morning and she laid her head on my arm and purred like she always did. I am so sad. I got valilum from the vet and I will give her a few pills before I take her. She gets upset going to the vet, and I don't think she has to be alert for this. I intend to spend a lot of quiet time with her this weekend. This is so painful, I hate it. I wish there was an easy peacful way to do this. I don't consider going to the vet peaceful. I see their pupils dilate after they get the shot, or should I say pounding to their little bodies. I;ve put down 4 cat in my life and it has never been peacful. That's why I am giving Mozel valilum. Hopefully this will make the difference. I hope she is unconcscious when I take her. That is what I am aiming for.
thanks again

Bless her little heart We'll be here for you to help you through it all and Mozel will be safely over the bridge come monday

Come back to us when your ready, and enjoy what time you have together, but our thoughts are with you both on this sad and upsetting weekend

When you compare what they sometimes go through without a vet's intervention, the ending is peaceful. The pupils dialate because of the potassium. I have been with many at the final moment under the needle. I have also been with many that have died in my arms, on my lap, or other places. Each leaving is difficult, the pain intolerable at times. There are second guesses about what I did wrong, what could I have done right? Even when the tiny bottle babies pass away, and I have only had them a few hours at best, doubt and uncertainty creep in.

Because of how I have chosen to live my life, among abused, neglected abandoned animals, I walk this path more than most. It is never easy and it never will be.

Stay calm and strong and be with Mozel now, and you will be with her again.

Gail, I know what you're going through, and I know how very difficult and sad it is.
We had to put our 14 year old cat Midnight to sleep 4 1/2 years ago...and Snowball is also 14 now and has had CRF (progressing slowly) for the last 4 1/2 years, so I know our time with him is growing short too.

I am so sad. I got valilum from the vet and I will give her a few pills before I take her. She gets upset going to the vet, and I don't think she has to be alert for this. I intend to spend a lot of quiet time with her this weekend. This is so painful, I hate it. I wish there was an easy peacful way to do this. I don't consider going to the vet peaceful.

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We had the vet make a house call to give the injection when the time came for us to say goodbye to Midnight. That way we didn't have to put any additional stress on poor MIdnight on her last day, so maybe this is something you want to consider.

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We had the vet make a house call to give the injection when the time came for us to say goodbye to Midnight. That way we didn't have to put any additional stress on poor MIdnight on her last day, so maybe this is something you want to consider.

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My sister had the vet come to the house when she had to have her dog pts like Lorie mentions.

It cost a bit more to take the vet from the surgery but it was worth not having the dog stressed out anymore than what he would be, not only for him but my sister also

I am sending love to you and to Mozel.