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Hi Kim. I still haven't gotten to what I felt at that moment. I don't know if it was peace or just this overwhelming grief. I am glad I was with him instead of Jamie who has always had to stay with the dogs because I just couldn't. I knew I was going to hold Hemi through it all. I even held him to my chest driving to pick Jamie up at work. I think he really knew where he was going.
the funny thing is the other cats. They're all still looking for him to sit on his pillow. Maggie the 5 year old, she was his gaurdian angel. She sat with him everywhere but mostly at the seat of the chair while he was on the pillow at the top of the chair. No one will sit on his pillow and she's sitting now loking at the pillow. I still hug that damn pillow because I can smell Hemi on it.
I know it's just the second day and I'm so glad I have you all to talk to because Jamie just tells me I have to get over this. I haven't eaten so now I finally do and I feel sick. 21 years is how old our oldest child is. 21 years is half my life. I can't just move on. I need to mourne him. Thanks for understanding that.
You don't know how much having you all has meant to me.
I think I've made some life long friends here.
Laurie
the funny thing is the other cats. They're all still looking for him to sit on his pillow. Maggie the 5 year old, she was his gaurdian angel. She sat with him everywhere but mostly at the seat of the chair while he was on the pillow at the top of the chair. No one will sit on his pillow and she's sitting now loking at the pillow. I still hug that damn pillow because I can smell Hemi on it.
I know it's just the second day and I'm so glad I have you all to talk to because Jamie just tells me I have to get over this. I haven't eaten so now I finally do and I feel sick. 21 years is how old our oldest child is. 21 years is half my life. I can't just move on. I need to mourne him. Thanks for understanding that.
You don't know how much having you all has meant to me.
I think I've made some life long friends here.
Laurie