Originally Posted by menagerie mama
Good to know, although it feels like it. So what do you do when you have a sad attack? It can be anything, a song we liked, seeing a Harley drive by (he has one, we used to go riding a lot) I've see him driving 4 times in the past week and a half...etc....I try not to think about it and focus on that he was a jerk but I don't have any closure on this....It's easy to say just get over it, which is what I hear a lot but I can't tell my heart not to feel or be hurt..
Well, I'm actually on a LTD, but am in the recovery period from a bout of depression from Bipolar Disorder, which I was diagnosed with earlier last year. People with the disorder often have difficulty with friendships, relationships with family or a S/O, and I have alienated EVERYONE (including family) with the exception of one friend who doesn't live here in Toronto.
The way I've been dealing, and which has worked for me are psych meds. I'm on 4 meds at the moment. My dad was also bipolar (used to be called manic depression), but he suicided. So, I have good days and bad days, but the fluctuations aren't as bad as I was without meds. I've gained some weight from the meds (used to be a sie 8/10, now a 12/14), but it's worth it. I would rather be a little portly and have my sanity. People don't understand what it's like to have severe mood fluctuations.
As for dating, my ex BF was the last serious relationship I had, and I ended it (wish I hadn't) impulsively. I've dated a few guys since then, but they couldn't compare, and I knew they wouldn't last. But I still regret breaking it off with my ex. He knew I was ill though, and wouldn't stick through it, so what can you do?