I'm new here on TheCatSite.com Forums. I wish I could say I'm huge cat fan and I know almost everything there is to know about them but I don't. I have two cats; well let me correct myself I now have one cat. Her name is LeeLu. My aunt named her for me, My aunt is a huge cat fan and a huge animal fan she has 10 cats and 1 dog. She gave me my two cats the other cat's name was Caleb. I want to talk to you all about Caleb. Because it seems to make me feel a little bit better to talk about him. I had him and LeeLu for 5 years. On December 15 of this year my family and I had to put Caleb down. He became very sick, he had kidney stones inside of him and it was blocking him and not allowing him to use the litter box. He was posining himself from the inside. The Doctor said that he had a less than 50% chance to live unless we did something right away which could have cost my family and I up to $700 to fix him and even after that it was still less than a 50% chance he would make it out alive. Now please know that my family and I are not wealthy people he are struggling to pay bills and we are pretty much living from paycheck to paycheck. If we had the money we would have tried much harder to save him if there was a better chance for him as well. Through the five years that I've had Caleb he's been my little buddy and best friend through every minute of our lives, we seemed to just have this connection between each other. I kissed him on the head alot and pet him just has much and a whole lot more. Every night when I'd get home from work he'd come and sit on my lap and I'd pet him for as long as an hour at a time or more. He cheered me up and I cheered him up. We were the best of friends. He was my best friend. He had gotten sick about December 10th but about December 12th he seemed to perk right back up and be his normal self again but after that day he went downhill and kept slipping we decided to take him to the vet and we got the bad news. We had to let him go I didn't want him to suffer and for the past few days that's what he had been doing. And now after putting him down I feel very guilty about doing it. I feel like I killed him and now I can only remember the bad stuff all the times I didn't feel like petting him and shoowed him away, now I wish I would have pet him all the time. I know I pet him alot like I said I pet him two or three times a day not every day but 6 out of 7 days I pet him and kissed him. He means so much to me and now I can't help but think that because I let him go I killed him. He was my sweet boy and I should have been the one that got the needle not him. You all should have seen his face when the Vet took him to the back to put him to sleep, he didn't even know what was going on. In his face he was gone. I've been crying ever since we put him to sleep until my mother sat me down this past friday and told me it wasn't my fault and he lived a great live. He loved me and I loved him. I know I have to let him go and I know he is up in heave but I can't let him go and I want him hear with me. I love him so much and it hurts so bad right now. If I could have died from him I would have, I don't care that he was a cat and I am a human a life is a life and he didn't deserve to lose his. I don't know how to let him go. Can anyone help me. God Bless You Caleb I'll see you later.
Caleb2000
Caleb2000