Tango update

Dear Cynthia,
My prayers are sent your way... Thanks for letting me know, I do pray for his recovery and your peace.
God Bless Always

We just wanted to let you know, Tango passed away today, Thursday April 12th, 2001 at 6:30 am. We aren't really sure what happenend, he seemed to be doing really well. We would like to thank everyone for their support throughout the entire time he was sick.

My heart just sank as I read your post. I am sorry for your loss especially after fighting so hard to save Tango. God's little creatures touch our lives in mysterious ways. You will be in my thoughts today.

Dearest Cynthia,
We've all witnessed the strength you and Tango possessed to fight all the way for his life, and I sit here and cry becasue he's been taken from you so early. I really don't know what else to say Cynthia, my heart is so broken for you ...even I was so attached to him (I'm sure I'm not alone when I say that). Peace be with you and Tango...My prayers are with you all.
Always,

Dear Cynthia,

I'm so sorry about Tango. He was a real fighter that kitty. My heart sank too when I read your recent post. You did what you could for him and he was very lucky to have you in his life. You and Tango will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I am so sorry to hear that Tango passed away. I share your sorrow and have warm wishes for your future. You were very thoughtful for him.

I am so sorry to hear you lost him. I am going to light some candles in his honor tonight.

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. He was a brave little guy and has touched our hearts!

Actually I messed up, it was Friday the 13th that Tango passed away. We had an autopsy done and the vet said that although Tango had fully recovered from surgery, and was doing very well, (he had gained weight and his fever was gone), there were other problems they we were not aware of, and he just had no fight left. The vet said that his organs just shut down, his liver and kidneys were discolored, and there was something around the edge of his lungs.
Tango was four years old. He was the light of our lives and we will miss him everyday. We thank-you so very much for all of your support. It has meant the world to us. I am sure he hung in there for so long because all of you were pulling for him. He was special to us.
He came into my life as a stray, three months old, and captured my heart. he was as anti-social as a cat could be and liked nothing better then to hide under my bed. His first official act was to spray inside my cupboards while I was at work. He loved to wake me up nose to nose to let me know he was hungry. He had a hernia fixed at 6 months old...that is when I realized he had a voice, he didn't use it often, just when I didn't get the food out fast enough.
He loved to run wild in the middle of the night using me as a crash pad. He always knew when I was sad, that is the only time he would get close to me, he would sit next to me.
Once when I had hurt myself, I was sitting on the couch crying and he was rubbing against my legs...just as I was thinking how sweet he was being he bit my big toe.
He was well travelled,living in two countries and three states, and I can't help but think that this is what started him to be more affectionate.

Tango was loved so very much by Bruce and I, and although I can't stop thinking that he was taken from us well before his time...we will continue to love him and remember him everyday. He was very unique, my little guy. He was the cat I always wanted and I even got him to be affectionate after his surgery...maybe he knew, maybe not. But I like to think that he did and wanted to show us how much he loved us before he went. Thursday night he cuddled up, with his head on Bruce's pillow, between the two of us and laid with us until we were asleep, at which point he got up and walked on my head. I am sorry for rambling on I just needed you to know what a special guy he was to us. He fought a good fight and he will be remembered forever.Thanks again for everything.
Cynthia, Bruce and Tango

I am sure I speak for everyone when I say that you are more than welcome to talk about happy memories of Tango anytime. Unfortunately, we probably can all relate to the sad fact that sometimes our loved ones are taken away too soon. It always makes me feel better to talk about how wonderful they were. Feel free to share happy feelings with us.

It has almost been two weeks, and I still cannot beleive Tango is gone. I have nightmares, and the what if's and maybe's are killing me. I feel so very responsible. If I hadn't relocated with my fiancee, but instead stayed where we were, and made sure the vet saw him everyday, if I hadn't been so stubborn about the blood transfusion. Maybe he would still be here.
I see him everywhere. I feel cheated and I am angry. I don't know what to do. The one friend that I could talk to has just made me feel like garbage, she said she so worried about me that she had to pay to go massage therapist twice and had a panic attack, so now I feel like I have no-one to talk to. My family says he is better off now that he is no longer in pain, as far as we know he wasn't in pain.
Am I a terrible person? I feel like it. I guess this is all rhetorical, I don't expect people I don't know to tell me that I am not responsible, someday maybe I won't feel like I am.
I have found a lot of support here. I don't want to take advantage of this forum, I know there are a lot of people out there who have bigger problems with their loved ones, I think I just need to vent for a while longer. Thank-you for always being there.

Cytnhia, Bruce and Tango

Dearest Cynthia,

Oh Cynthia, my heart is so broken for you. I know for a fact that you loved him sooooo much...just look at the past thread...How many people gave you the support you came here to ask for...You took incredible care of him. It was so overwhelming to my heart when learning of all of his health problems. Poor Tango was riddled with health problems...just like many people...and we do not recover either.
My prayers and hopes for recovery were so strong for him. I just know that sometimes things just don't make any sense so we blame ourselves; because there's no one to blame, nothing that anyone could've done anymore than you already had. Please don't let your emotions run wild with the "what if's". He is alive. He is with you always. All of us here too. I for one will never forget him; due to the major fact that YOU & BRUCE were taking such good care of him and more importantly loving him with all your heart!
I wish there was something extremely intelligent I could say...I'm just rambling on because I don't want to see you in pain; you've gone through so much already. Plese email me if you wish to talk [email protected]

There are many special kitties ... all of them! Tango always stuck out in my mind for some reason; and that reason was your love and care for him.

My prayers are with you

Gods Blessings to You & Bruce

Love,

You vent here all you need. All of us here know just how much a part of our lives they are. When they pass, it seems just as hard as loosing a human family memeber. What matters most is that everything in your power was done to help Tango. If he brought one smile to your face and you his then all of it was for something. You feel free to share any time you need to.

Dearest Cynthia,

I also wanted to mention that you're responsible for your best freind's feelings. I'm sure you've heard that time and time again...but, it's always nice to reinforce it. I'm sorry she went through that, but that's what best friends are for! We have to depend on our friends and family. Our families love us so much that they want to see us out of pain so quickly, yet the truth is...they are right Cynthia...this is not your fault...I don't know of many people with a heart that can just move on...do you? In all cases, I think our pain must be reckoned with and it takes time to accept it. We all feel guilty about things in our lives; I had the same thing happen to me, except it was my dog. If I look back; I can relive the horror,..that's if I choose to...I won't only because I know in my heart NOW...that what happened was meant to be. It took some time. Give yourself some more time.
Forgive my rambling once again, I am truly concerned for you.
Always,