Lola is at peace

Thank you all...we're doing as well as we can be here. Leo is extremely confused.

I met my foster, though, and I am head over heels in love with her. So that helped brighten my day a little. We're working hard to prepare her room for her arrival, so I'll let everyone know some GOOD news for once when it happens. She needs a name...a beautiful, petite calico. Hopefully, that occassion will be a happy one.

As heartbroken as I am for losing her, I felt so greatly, greatly relieved when she passed. As much as I wish she were still alive, watching her struggle for breath and lose all that weight despite how hard I tried to feed her was so much worse than this. As rotten as I feel right now, I know that now I get to heal and she is forever at peace. I can stop wondering and know that wherever we go after we die can't be worse than the pain of wasting away the way she was. It's going to be a steep, uphill climb for me, but I know that eventually this will get easier. I just feel so down in the dumps right now. If I could ask for anything, it would be for the crying to stop.

We'll miss you, beautiful Lola

Knowing it was best for her in the circumstances doesn't make it easier for you. It is so sad this had to happen but you did all you could to make her time here as full of love as it could be. Good luck with the new little one. May Lola's spirit look after her.

I'm so sorry. What an incredibly strong person you are for being able to hold and comfort your baby as she passed over. I admire you and everyone else that is able to do this. How wonderful that Lola found such a caring person to watch over her during her short stay here.

I'm so sorry. When my Mom passed, my cousin said that she had heard that tears cleanse the soul. She told me she must have a very clean soul. Now you have a very clean soul, Allie.

May your memories of her short kittenhood be a comfort to you. I suppose it is a blessing for Lola that if she was to suffer, that the suffering didn't last for a very long time (although I am sure it felt like forever to you.) But I do wish for your sake, and Ian's and Leo's, that her time here had been so much longer and healthier. Deepest condolences to you all.

Rest in peace, sweet Lola. I'm glad PaPa is there to watch over you.

Allie, even though I knew it was going to happen, I'm so sad for you. I'm not very good with words, and so many meaningful things have been said here. I know just how you feel, and your memories will remain strong while your emptiness gradually will fade. And pretty soon we remember the good times, and recognize the meaning that one little life had for you and everyone else. God bless.
Kim.

***Hugs*** I am so sorry. I am glad she is at peace but we will all miss her.

I am sorry sorry. RIP Sweet Lola..I am sure LG will give her a rub..

Oh my heart hit the floor when I saw this thread! I knew it was comming but even still...

I wish I could give you a hug and sit with you and cry with you. Lola was on my mind today. Somehow a part of me must have known what was happening. I am glad Lola isn't suffering anymore. Sometimes the anticiapation is 'worse' than what comes after. Please don't be afraid to grieve. Many TCSers are grieving with you tonight.

Thank you everyone for your support. You really have no idea how much it means to me in this difficult time. It's weird though. I'm not sad like, I wish I could bring her back sad. She was suffering a great deal and now she is in heaven, sitting on my granfather's lap listening to Johnny Cash and sending me angels on earth, but I just miss her so much already that my heart breaks. I love Leo and I love my little newcomer, but nothing in the world is going to be able to make me stop missing her, you know? She was a truly unique, extraordinary jewel and she made this world so much better by being born.

Awwww, now I'm crying again!

Allie, I'm glad Lola had a wonderful mommy to love and take care of her in the short time she was here.

RIP, sweet Lola.

{{{{{{{{Allie}}}}}}}}}} I'm sure Luthien was waiting for her and they are playing together even now.

Sending hugs your way.

Sue

((HUGS)) to you all

I'm so sorry, Allie. Please know we are all thinking of you! I'm glad she had such a nice meowmy to take good care of her while she was here.

I'm just reading this now. So sorry to hear.

RIP Lola you will be missed.

My condolences. This was a very fast transition and I wish the outcome had been different.

R.I.P. Lola

Originally Posted by Kai Bengals

My condolences. This was a very fast transition and I wish the outcome had been different.

R.I.P. Lola

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yes, it was. Unfortunately, once it hits the chest cavity, virtually nothing can be done and it often only takes a couple of weeks for kittens to succumb to it.

I hate this disease. I feel like it stole my little baby girl right out of my arms. We had JUST started immunotherapy when it took a (huge) turn for the worse.

It's weird, though, how random my emotions have been. One moment I'll be peaceful with the idea of life cycles and accepting of her death and the next minute I'm bawling my eyes out then the next minute I'm not even thinking about it. Other than when my Grandpa died when I was about 11 or so, this is the first experience I've ever had with death (my parents' dogs died when I was too young to grasp everything). It's an interesting process, grief is.

Thanks again, everyone, for all of your support and kind words. It truly means a lot to me.