I only knew you for a short while but you will be with me forever in my heart. Your life wasn't a very happy one and you deserved so much better, I hope your last two weeks with us proved that someone did love and care for you and that not all people are heartless.
I only wish I had found you sooner before the illness had taken over. You were much too sweet for this earth, even after all you had been through, you could still manage to purr and head butt my legs, I hope you are happy and at peace now, I will miss you so much.I feel blessed to have had you around even for such a short time and will always remember you, you will always have a place in my heart.
i took maxine to the vet last Saturday, she had cat aids and i was told it was one of the reasons she was still so skinny, she had lost a lot of fur on the drive and the vet told me she had kidney problems too, he said she was a very sick cat and might not last long.
i thought she looked okay but apparently she was in for a lot of pain, which is something i couldn't put her through after the life she'd had so i decided to have her put to sleep, it was the hardest decision i have ever had to make in my life and even now i feel like such a failure.
i couldn't stop crying for the rest of the weekend and i know i will for a while yet, she was such a beautiful and sweet cat, obviously too sweet for this world, it just seems so unfair because i found her a home and everything, i was sure she was going to have a happy life and i was wrong.
i know in my heart i did the right thing but i can't stop blaming myself for it, even though there was nothing i could do.
i know if she had been looked after and an indoor cat she would have been okay, when will people learn that if they want a cat they have to look after it, it just makes me so angry especially because the one's that suffer are the cats and they deserve a lot better than that.
i have to finish this, i can hardly see the screen lol, i just miss her so much
felicia
