Hello, Cindy -- I just found this thread, and I want to add my good wishes to those of all your many friends. My own history of chronic depression goes back to age six, although I wasn't diagnosed until I was 26. I've used a dozen different antidepressants, and most of them have helped a bit.
Right now, I'm on Celexa, which is the most effective thing I've ever taken, and which (for me) has virtually no side-effects. The best thing about it is that, unlike Prozac, it has not changed my personality -- I still have emotions! They just don't crush me the way they used to.
However, I've recently come to understand that my primary problem isn't really depression -- it's ANXIETY. There's a newer, much more expensive drug called Buspar that my doctor wants me to try because it's more effective against anxiety, but I have no insurance and just can't afford it. (I mention this in case anxiety is behind your problems, too.)
I'm glad you're seeing a specialist. I've had GPs who knew less about depression and anxiety than I do... it's a very complex field that really requires dedicated study. So you're on the right track now!
I know how hard it can be, though, to keep moving forward when you're dealing with this kind of thing. You have a lot of good people here who are reaching out to you and cheering you on -- and you mustn't let the depression cut you off from that. Grab those reaching hands and hang on for dear life!
If you ever want to talk, I'd love to join the crew who are here for you. Please email me anytime...