Confession is good for the soul....right?

Hey guys....this could get a tad long before I'm done, I'm afraid. Most of you who know me have noticed that I've not been as active on the board lately, and since I've apologised to my mentor friends already, I wanted to share with the rest of you, my extended family too!

I've been treated for depression for quite a few years now, been on several meds, the latest having been Prozac, which has worked well....until lately, that is! I've been battling a bad period of depression all summer, just gradually worsening day by day....I didn't want to talk to anyone, see anyone, do anything that I didn't have to. If working hadn't been necessary, I'd have just stayed home and in the bed all the time. I finally came to a point just before my birthday when I was considering taking my own life.....thankfully I realised I didn't need to, and got my dr to up my dosage of Prozac, which helped a bit, but caused terrible muscle tremors. Went back to him and have now switched to Zoloft, which is helping, but not enough....am still terribly depressed and just want out of life.

I called today and got an appointment to see a "shrink" guys......and for someone who's calling in life is helping others, it was a humbling experience to have to ask for help for myself. My appointment isn't until next Thursday, so how about some good vibes from this board for me that the next week will be at least a "balanced" week instead of a downer one? Thanks guys, and I still love all of you!

How terrible for you that you have been on such an emotionally roller coaster. I am wishing you the best and sending you many good vibes!

Oh Cindy, I am here for you! I go see my new "shrink" tomorrow. I am scared but know I have to get better! Zoloft is working for me. I was just increased. Sending vibes , you CAN get through this!
Boy it sure is funny how you can help other people but not yourself...I was just talking to my mom a few mintues ago about the same things.

Cindy, I am sorry you are going through such a tough time
I'm glad you are going in for therapy, my niece has been through therapy this past year and it has helped her tremedously.

Sending lots of good vibes and your way.

I'm sorry you haven't been doing well. I really hope things will get better. I know how hard it can be to get help in situations like that and I'm glad you found the courage to do it.

We'll be thinking about you.
And if you ever need to talk we're right here.

I'm so sorry to hear your having a difficult time with that lately. I know depression or 'emotional roallercoasters' suck. I'm so glad you have made that appointment. It's a hard thing to do. I know admitting it to my not so nice doctor before was hard on me. I just got to the point I didn't care. Changing doctors wasn't an option, and fortunately for me, counseling helped so I wasn't put on meds. It was brought on by one of my husband's deployments.

Cindy,
Im sorry your having such a hard time i hope and pray things will get better for you hang in there and tell the doctor just what your feeling it helps to get it out. My mom starting zoloft it took a while for the medicane to start helping but now she seems to being doing quite well i hope you will get adjusted on your meds right so you'll start feeling better soon


sending many hugs your way

I agree that therapy is good for everyone! I'm glad you are going and I'm sending lots of good vibes.

You are in my thoughts and I hope you beat this soon ! Sending prayers your way

oh dear... do take care of yourself and take things easy ya? positive vibes from me and my gang..

Sending prayers your way, you are not alone. <<<hugs>>>

Cindy ...glad to see you posting, sorry things have been so down for you. I'll be sending lots of vibes and prayers for your therapist to be a good fit and help you work through this. You're not alone, dear, come talk to us whenever you need to -- before you need to. OK?

Lots of cyber hugs and prayers coming your way sister mine. Love you MOST.

sending vibes, prayers, and last but not least... 2 week old kitten hugs!

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Awwww. Kitten hugs!!!

Cindy honey, I'm thinking of you - and sending my `hang in there' vibes for you. I know what you are going through and it can be so hard to keep going when you feel so despondent and unmotivated. I think it's great that you are going to see a doctor who is a specialist in this area, who can sort out your meds properly for you and help you with some coping strategies.

Don't despair about the amount of different antidepressants you have been on - it took seven different tries for me to find the right one, and it was a long road, but once you're on your way you will start to notice such a dramatic improvement and change in your life.

It is very hard to ask for help - you always feel that you can handle things on your own, but one of the problems about depression (this is what I find, anyway) is that it's SO all-consuming while you're going through it, and then when it passes you kind of forget the pain and think it probably wasn't as bad as all that, and so you don't ask for help, and then, inevitably, it comes round again, usually worse than last time. But by the time that happens you are already tired and lethargic and unmotivated so then you can't be bothered asking for help anyway, and just plod along till it eventually passes again. It's a vicious circle but you have taken the first step in combating this and once you are out of that circle, and have a support network to whom you can turn when you need to, things will definitely lighten up, I promise.

If you want to talk further please pm or email me, I would be glad to be of help.

I've been through it too, please hang in there! It will get better!

Cindy, I didn't know you felt like things had gone so downhill. I hope the therapy helps you out.

Cindy i was just thinking about you yesterday and wondered how i hadn't heard from you?!.

You know were all here for you whenever you need to talk