I don't feel "silly" about having such a hard time about quitting anymore, I just get a bit annoyed by people who say "I just decided not to smoke and never did" and at the same time kind of suggest that I just don't have the willpower they do. I've seen friends who've smoked for years just quit, and they didn't really get the craving at all- which I have found to be a physical symptom for me anyway, since when I feel like having a smoke, if I take a nicotine tab, the feeling goes away. I was very surprised when I found this, because I had thought that the feeling of wanting a smoke was a habit and just in my mind. No amount of brushing my teeth, chewing gum, cleaning the house or doing anything to take my mind off it works in the long run. I'm not belittling people who have quit by just deciding to, I think they are truly amazing people, but I do believe that many of us just can't do it that way, and it's unfair how *some* people make it sound like I'm this weak person for not being able to (not referring to anyone on this site, but to some people I've talked to in real life). I believe that some of us get much more addicted to smoking than others, even if they've smoked as long as we have and as much. I even heard of a study that suggested that some people have a predisposition in their genes or something for (nicotine) addiction, meaning that the people that do have this gene get a much more severe addiction than others, which would explain why some of us have such a terrible time quitting. Of course, I don't know if this actually is possible.
Anyhow, about the microtabs. The company that makes all the other nicotine products here make these as well, they're tiny tablets that you put under your tongue and they dissolve in about half an hour. They recommend you take one or two (two if you're badly addicted) every hour or two, one tablet has 2 mg of nicotine in it. They have the same sort of bitter "taste" as the gum does, but not as bad, and they work fast- if I feel like having a smoke, I take one or two, and in a minute or so the feeling's gone. Nobody can see you have one in your mouth, and no one need to know you're using them. What I also like about them is that because they're under your tongue, you can't eat at the same time, which is good for me since I tend to nibble on something all the time to have something to do with my mouth when not smoking. Then again, I've decided that even if I gain 20 pounds when quitting, it's worth it, losing weight is so much easier than quitting smoking (although it is hard too, need to lose about 20 already...).
Jeanie- I turn into a real bitch when not smoking, too. I yell at my dogs and cats for just about nothing, which they can't possibly understand, and I feel terrible about it afterwards, but just can't help myself, I get sooo angry and am so irritated all the time! Which is why the tabs are a lifesaver, I don't turn into a bitch with these.