Nena - DON'T LET HIM DO THAT TO YOU! You are NOT a FAILURE! Good rittance to someone who treats you so bad that you feel worthless! I'm glad you are in counceling - it will help you to realise that you are better off and will be happy with YOURSELF in the long run. I'm sure after five years of that crap, anyone would have low self esteem!
I'm divorced too, and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. I'm a different person - more assertive, more self reliant, and HAPPY WITH ME! Before, I thought low of myself (looking back). I will NEVER EVER let anyone get to me like that and make me think poorly of myself. It's not fair!
You will be okay! You just need to pick yourself up by your boots and make YOUR LIFE WORK FOR YOU! I know many people, and yes, it's unfortunate, that are divorced with children and they are just better off for it - no more stress, tension, etc....
I've said that I'll never get married again either. Crap, I'm not even dating at ALL. But never say never Nena - you just may meet a really nice guy - in church, at a friends party.... you just never know. Stay optimistic - (I know - it's hard
), and rest assured, there are lots of divorcee's out there that are doing just fine - like you will, I'm sure! And remember, you don't need someone else in your life to be complete, you just need to be happy with yourself!