Oh sweetie, I'm sorry! Do something every day to be good to yourself. I know what it feels like to be brokenhearted (whether you leave or vice versa). Personally, I think journaling, reading, and watching movies with a nice tub of buttery popcorn (once in a while is OK!) are a great coping mechanism and temporary escape! My favorite "escape" books are the Chronicles of Narnia series.... Talk about engrossing and uplifting! After my divorce from my first husband, I read these books every night. I could not put them down, and they made me forget some of my own worries.
Laughter is very healing, so seeing a funny movie with your girlfriends (even though you might not feel like it) might just make you laugh your head off and realize you're in need of some fun times again. Also, movies that are very hopeful are great. I love "Cast Away" - it was sad sometimes, but it made me cry, laugh, and look forward to the future. Another of my favorite movies is "Sliding Doors" - perfect for a time when you're wondering about a decision you've made - I know it's just a movie, but I love how it gets the point across that everything happens as it should, and there's a reason for everything. I have watched it soooo many times and still love it!!!! (That, and "Next Stop Wonderland"!! For the hopeful romantic in all of us!)
Now I am happily married to my current husband and I'm so happy for everything that happened in the past - without those experiences, I would not have learned what I did, would not be the person that my husband fell in love with, would not be able to appreciate all that *the future* and God had prepared for me. And you have something wonderful in your future, so take as long as you need to let go, but remember that there is so much more in your future than the temporary sadness you feel right now.
Many, many hugs!!!!! I would so take you out for a girls' night if I could! http://www.lollie.com/love/love5.html
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