... where you suddenly get hit by a random thought particle and you realise just how small and insignificant your life is in the big picture of the world and the universe and stuff? (The answer really IS 42) I think i just had one of those. I was just washing dishes and pondering about last night. I'd spent the day alone (job hunting, still) and I'd spent 2 hours cooking a traditional English beef stew with dumplings, puff pastry and all the veg that goes with it, for the Danish side of the family. After which I spent the next 3 hours not being spoken to (the Danish washes straight over my head still) - if I was spoken to, it was to ask if there was any more of something - and babysitting the two kids. I went to bed and Rune then spent until 2am playing poker online. And today I got to clear up all the dishes from yesterday and do more laundry.
What has all of this got to do with the universe you ask? I guess I don't know, but I was feeling seriously put out. I'm nobody special. I don't work, I'm no longer a mum - technically speaking, of course - I'm not a wife or a fiance..... and I guess I was wondering what on earth my purpose in life is. I don't have "direction" - and yet I can sit here and offer advice to others who ask for it, regardless of the mess my own is in. Why is that? And why is it we can sit here and feel sorry for ourselves sometimes, when we know full well that there are people out there who really do have nothing? I have a roof over my head, there is food on the table and I'm loved. Why is that simple thing never good enough? I suppose the more we have, the more we want.
So anyway, back to the universe thing. I find it funny to sit here, and muse and complain about the little things in life.... then to sit and think about the world in the bigger picture.... and then imagine, we are just one little speck of dust in this ever expanding void of nothing much else....
Why is it that the whole universe ultimately finishes up being a personal universe wrapped up in self? Just a thought... if it made sense.
What has all of this got to do with the universe you ask? I guess I don't know, but I was feeling seriously put out. I'm nobody special. I don't work, I'm no longer a mum - technically speaking, of course - I'm not a wife or a fiance..... and I guess I was wondering what on earth my purpose in life is. I don't have "direction" - and yet I can sit here and offer advice to others who ask for it, regardless of the mess my own is in. Why is that? And why is it we can sit here and feel sorry for ourselves sometimes, when we know full well that there are people out there who really do have nothing? I have a roof over my head, there is food on the table and I'm loved. Why is that simple thing never good enough? I suppose the more we have, the more we want.
So anyway, back to the universe thing. I find it funny to sit here, and muse and complain about the little things in life.... then to sit and think about the world in the bigger picture.... and then imagine, we are just one little speck of dust in this ever expanding void of nothing much else....
Why is it that the whole universe ultimately finishes up being a personal universe wrapped up in self? Just a thought... if it made sense.