From when I was 11 I dreamed of becoming an actress, I took drama classes all through highschool, although other things came up, I never let go of that dream.
There is a film, an ACTUAL film being shot, a low budget one, but its a real film, and I called the lady up to see if I could get a part as "background" or something. She calls me up today and asks me if I want to be a fill-in person! I say yes, but I work full time, and I can't do it, I can't even get off work to see her on Friday. Work gets in the way of all possibilities.
Anyway, I tell her about my best friend, and there is a good chance that she will get it. I am really happy for her but I feel so awful, I dreamed of this kind of opportunity, and I can't do it, and at the start I was excited for her, but now I can't stand her talking about it, because I wanted it so badly. I know it sounds selfish, but now all I do is cry when thinking about it, which is nearly all the time.
Why is life so unfair?
sorry, I needed to get it off my chest.
There is a film, an ACTUAL film being shot, a low budget one, but its a real film, and I called the lady up to see if I could get a part as "background" or something. She calls me up today and asks me if I want to be a fill-in person! I say yes, but I work full time, and I can't do it, I can't even get off work to see her on Friday. Work gets in the way of all possibilities.
Anyway, I tell her about my best friend, and there is a good chance that she will get it. I am really happy for her but I feel so awful, I dreamed of this kind of opportunity, and I can't do it, and at the start I was excited for her, but now I can't stand her talking about it, because I wanted it so badly. I know it sounds selfish, but now all I do is cry when thinking about it, which is nearly all the time.
Why is life so unfair?
sorry, I needed to get it off my chest.
