I just got back from the vet about two hours ago where I had to have my foster cat Nickolas euthanized. He was a 15 year old himalyian persian that had a spinal cord injury that caused him to have extremely weak hind legs. I got him about 4 days ago (he was turned into our rescue about 2 weeks ago, I believe) and came from a local shelter. After only four days he was doing sooo poorly he ended up had cancer on the spine and couldn't surpress his bladder anymore and the vet said although he wasn't in any pain he had no quality of life left and even with fluids, and meds wouldn't live but a couple more weeks so we had to make the decision to have him put to sleep in our arms as he looked at me and purred the entire time. I am crushed over this. This was my first foster that has had to be put to sleep and even though it was only four days with me I loved him so much. Anybody have any words to help me get through this?? I plan on taking in a good bit of senior cats and terminally ill cats while fostering because I believe they are the ones that need someone the most and just need to learn how to deal with letting go.