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Well today has made a complete turn for the worst and has now become one of the worst days I have ever experienced. Brendan and I just broke up. We've been together for about 3 years and 5 months and this really came out of nowhere for me. I kind of think that it did for him as well, but he basically told me that he couldn't be in a relationship right now. It has nothing to do with me, and I honestly believe that, because I know he still loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful girl that he knows...but I guess he just needs to be apart right now. He doesn't know what's going to happen. He doesn't want to be with anyone. It hurts so much I can't even tell you guys. I can't imagine not seeing him and laughing at his jokes or any of those little things about him that I won't get to experience anymore. He's not looking to the future right now so I have no idea if we'll get back together. Apparently he's thrown up a few times this weekend and has cried a whole lot thinking about it, and I have no doubt that this is hurting him as well. I don't know what to do and I already miss him so much. We honestly worked so well together and I just feel so alone right now. I love him so much and I don't want to be without him. I really, really, really could use some hugs and support right now. I haven't been able to get ahold of anyone really close to me yet, and I need someone. Mainly I just want him and I back the way we were before he felt this way, but I know that at least for now that's not going to happen. Please help me you guys.
 

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Im so sorry your going through this.....I know the heartache is terrible. Seems so odd to have happened if everything was so good
Hopefully he will wake up and see how awful it is without you and get his head back on straight.
 

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Hang in there pet, its not easy at the moment. However, you have a shed load of friends here - guys and gals alike who want nothing but the best for you and all are here when ever you need a chat. Friends are those that prop you up, when you least expect it. Trust me, it appears - I have a lot more than I ever realised.
Cry, goto where its quiet, but when its all too much, give us all here a shout
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I'm so sorry Katherine! You have all the support you need right here from your TCS family.

If it is meant to be, you will get back together again. It's possible this time apart could have you re-evaluating the relationship also.

I truly hope everything works out for the best for you!
 

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Oh gosh, that is the last thing I expected to read. I am so sorry you and him are both hurting right now. I understand the difficult time this is for both of you. Although, maybe this time apart will help you both see just how much you need to be with each other
I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. In the end, this will make you both stronger.
I will pray for both you and Brendan for strength to get through this. I know it is hard to think about being happy right now, but I do hope that you feel better. And remember, you have tons and tons of friends here to support you! You know we'll be right there with you through all of this!
 

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I have not words to tell you Dear Katherine...
...I´m soooo sad for this situation....


I´m so sorry....


you has my best wishes and of course count with my prayers to you and him to look a good solution for this...


you´r friend Rigel...
 
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Thank you all so much, I can't even tell you how much it helps to know that I have such a great support system here. I just really needed to get it out there and let others know how I'm feeling. I don't know what will happen in the end, and that hurts more than anything, but at least I know I have you all to count on. I just talked to my mom and she's going to be making the drive over here after work to spend some time with me, which is great. It's always a plus to have your mommy there to cry to. THank you so much again. I can't tell you how nice it was to be able to come here and tell you all what was happening when I couldn't get a hold of anyone by phone and my roommate isn't home.
You all are so wonderful. Liz, Kev, Abbysmom, Meagan, and Rigel: thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Your support really is a wonderful crutch for me right now.
 

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Katherine, I just can't believe it. I thought... I just don't know what to say except that I feel so bad for you. It hurts a lot to break up. You are a super strong woman and you will be ok in the long run. This is a very tough time you are going through now though. I am so sorry, hon.
 

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I am soooo sorry to hear this Katherine. My heart goes out to you...I can't imagine not being with the man I love especially being together for 3 years and 5 months. Zack and I have been together for 4 years (yesterday) and I can sympathize what you must be going through. If you need a shoulder to cry on or just someone to really listen, please PM me! We are all here for you. This is the place for comfort, love and friends!
 

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I am really sorry to hear about that.
In time I know you will heal and things will turn out well, meanwhile I don't know how a stranger like me can really help. But I really am sorry to hear about it and hope you get in touch with someone close to you soon.
 

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Oh Katherine, I am no good at advice and I can't imagine how your heart is breaking but I am here to offer you all the support you need. I can't believe it.
 

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Oh, Katherine...I am so sorry about this, such a surprise! Right now it hurts like the dickens, yes. I cannot say what the future holds, nor what will stop it from hurting, but here is the best advice I can offer:

(I am the QUEEN of lists)

1. Cry as often as you need to

2. Keep yourself busy, even if it's reading or typing here!
3. Take time to EAT healthy food. This is not a good time to either eat too much of junk or develop a mini-undereating issue.
4. Try to sleep - sometimes listening to talk radio or a relaxation tape will help.
5. Keep talking about it.
6. Kiss your kitty, hug your kitty, tell your kitty about it!

7. Remember that there are lots of us looking out for you
8. Do not do anything silly on the rebound!

You will find it gets just a bit easier every day you are apart, and that way you are ready for being on your own for a while or getting back with said boyfriend.

Take care of yourself - or do the best you can!
Beth
 

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Katherine I'm so very sorry. It's horrible that you're hurting right now, I hope things start to look a little brighter for you soon. In the meantime mega hugs for you
. What a great mommy you have - it's so nice to be able to depend on your mommy when the world seems a nasty place
You can count on your friends here at TCS.
 

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Originally Posted by blueberrybeth

Oh, Katherine...I am so sorry about this, such a surprise! Right now it hurts like the dickens, yes. I cannot say what the future holds, nor what will stop it from hurting, but here is the best advice I can offer:

(I am the QUEEN of lists)

1. Cry as often as you need to

2. Keep yourself busy, even if it's reading or typing here!
3. Take time to EAT healthy food. This is not a good time to either eat too much of junk or develop a mini-undereating issue.
4. Try to sleep - sometimes listening to talk radio or a relaxation tape will help.
5. Keep talking about it.
6. Kiss your kitty, hug your kitty, tell your kitty about it!

7. Remember that there are lots of us looking out for you
8. Do not do anything silly on the rebound!

You will find it gets just a bit easier every day you are apart, and that way you are ready for being on your own for a while or getting back with said boyfriend.

Take care of yourself - or do the best you can!
Beth
What a great list, exactly the type of advice I was thinking of giving you. I have found that letting yourself feel the pain is the fastest way to get over that pain. Your body and mind does not like when you lie to them, so don't try to keep it all inside.

Just to let you know I am going through the same thing right now, and it's all I can do to not burst into tears at any given moment - even when I'm waiting in the Starbuck's lineup to order my coffee, I have to swallow a few times before I say my order cause I"m afraid I will burst out crying before I can say "tall non-fat latte please". I'm not even kidding.
 
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Originally Posted by journey

What a great list, exactly the type of advice I was thinking of giving you. I have found that letting yourself feel the pain is the fastest way to get over that pain. Your body and mind does not like when you lie to them, so don't try to keep it all inside.

Just to let you know I am going through the same thing right now, and it's all I can do to not burst into tears at any given moment - even when I'm waiting in the Starbuck's lineup to order my coffee, I have to swallow a few times before I say my order cause I"m afraid I will burst out crying before I can say "tall non-fat latte please". I'm not even kidding.
It does sound as though we're in the same boat. At this point I just keep wondering why he doesn't know if we'll be together if nothing about our relationship was what caused this ending. It ended because he's young and is apparently feeling that urge to not have any kind of relationship. It just kills to know that someone who loves you can't find a way to work it out. I'm so sorry that you're going through the same thing, but it's nice to know that we can go through it together. Hang in there, and I'll do the same!
 
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Originally Posted by blueberrybeth

Oh, Katherine...I am so sorry about this, such a surprise! Right now it hurts like the dickens, yes. I cannot say what the future holds, nor what will stop it from hurting, but here is the best advice I can offer:

(I am the QUEEN of lists)

1. Cry as often as you need to

2. Keep yourself busy, even if it's reading or typing here!
3. Take time to EAT healthy food. This is not a good time to either eat too much of junk or develop a mini-undereating issue.
4. Try to sleep - sometimes listening to talk radio or a relaxation tape will help.
5. Keep talking about it.
6. Kiss your kitty, hug your kitty, tell your kitty about it!

7. Remember that there are lots of us looking out for you
8. Do not do anything silly on the rebound!

You will find it gets just a bit easier every day you are apart, and that way you are ready for being on your own for a while or getting back with said boyfriend.

Take care of yourself - or do the best you can!
Beth
Thank you so much Beth, that really is a great list. From past experience I know that the hardest times will be trying to fall asleep and then the mornings when I remember what has happened. I appreciate the support so much as right now I can't imagine, and don't want to, life without him.
 
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