Well today has made a complete turn for the worst and has now become one of the worst days I have ever experienced. Brendan and I just broke up. We've been together for about 3 years and 5 months and this really came out of nowhere for me. I kind of think that it did for him as well, but he basically told me that he couldn't be in a relationship right now. It has nothing to do with me, and I honestly believe that, because I know he still loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful girl that he knows...but I guess he just needs to be apart right now. He doesn't know what's going to happen. He doesn't want to be with anyone. It hurts so much I can't even tell you guys. I can't imagine not seeing him and laughing at his jokes or any of those little things about him that I won't get to experience anymore. He's not looking to the future right now so I have no idea if we'll get back together. Apparently he's thrown up a few times this weekend and has cried a whole lot thinking about it, and I have no doubt that this is hurting him as well. I don't know what to do and I already miss him so much. We honestly worked so well together and I just feel so alone right now. I love him so much and I don't want to be without him. I really, really, really could use some hugs and support right now. I haven't been able to get ahold of anyone really close to me yet, and I need someone. Mainly I just want him and I back the way we were before he felt this way, but I know that at least for now that's not going to happen. Please help me you guys.
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9/26/05 at 12:13pm