Hi, Friskysmom, I know what you're going thru--I too have lost beloved pets. Nine years ago I lost a cat I had had for 17 years, since he was only weeks old. His name was Malkin and when he died my heart broke wide open. I thought I would never stop grieving. I wrote a long, long letter to him, just as if I were talking to him--about how much I loved him, how much I already missed him, how even in the awful pain I was going thru I still would NEVER have chosen not to know him and love him and have him in my life--and I folded up that tear-soaked letter and put it in his little grave when we buried him. Believe it or not, writing that letter to my Malkin helped ease my grief a little. Maybe you could try writing a letter to your Frisky--or just talk out loud to him, we know you aren't crazy, and who cares what anyone else thinks? You need to grieve, to go thru this very painful process, but I promise eventually the pain lessens, you can reach the time that you'll be able to remember all the GOOD times you had with Frisky, all the times he made you laugh (and maybe all the times YOU made HIM laugh??), all the wonderful HAPPY memories you and Frisky shared. And you know, about his name in your ID--I think to leave it there would be a wonderful tribute to Frisky, to the very large place he had (and will always have) in your heart. Of course that's your private decision, but I notice several other members here have chosen that way to memorialize a beloved cat. You say you need friends now--well, I'm brand new here, you don't know me yet, but I am very willing to be your friend. I'm sending you all the cyber-hugs and comfort I've got--hope they can ease your pain a little. God bless.