Or maybe I just need to tell someone whats going on.. get it out of my system... Im not sure.. but bear with me as i type this...
As most of you know John and I broke up last month and let me tell you I am so much happier now withouth him telling me what to do all of the time... Anyway I got back in touch with this guy I went to highschool with and always was drawn to so deeply... I had the BIGGEST crush on him and didn't have the nerve to tell him. Well we got to talking every night and he admitted that he'd always liked me in highschool... So i told him how i felt and we just couldn't believe it... So a couple weeks ago we started hanging out on the weekends (he lives 2 hours away for school) and I've been going to his band practices. We get along so well and i love being with him but the problem is, he's got a girlfriend. They've been together for 4 years and she's cheated on him twice but yet he's stayed with her because he's afraid of change... He wrote me this long email telling me how he feels but he's afraid that with his job he wouldn't be able to afford an apartment on his own and theres no one else out there to live with (he actually tried to get our friend to move out there with him but he won't move) and so on.... he doesnt want to have to move back in with his parents after all this time either. She knows he's been hanging out with me since we went to high school together and its been with other guys around but she doesnt know that we're hanging out away from the guys either... We're both Wiccan and last week we were up at our spot in his woods where he gave me a rose quartz ball and said to me "I have one that matches *holds them both up together* so even if nothing happens between us, we will always be connected" I just melted.. That is the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me... It just makes me sick to my stomach that he's with someone that treats him like crap when I'm here doing everything I can to show him what hes worth...
Im on vacation right now in Daytona and he just got offline from talking to me so he can get up for work and I have never missed someone like I miss him right now... Ugh.... I have to go out to the trailer to bed (don't wanna wake up my grandfather) but I'll be on tomorrow. Any advise for a love sick woman?
As most of you know John and I broke up last month and let me tell you I am so much happier now withouth him telling me what to do all of the time... Anyway I got back in touch with this guy I went to highschool with and always was drawn to so deeply... I had the BIGGEST crush on him and didn't have the nerve to tell him. Well we got to talking every night and he admitted that he'd always liked me in highschool... So i told him how i felt and we just couldn't believe it... So a couple weeks ago we started hanging out on the weekends (he lives 2 hours away for school) and I've been going to his band practices. We get along so well and i love being with him but the problem is, he's got a girlfriend. They've been together for 4 years and she's cheated on him twice but yet he's stayed with her because he's afraid of change... He wrote me this long email telling me how he feels but he's afraid that with his job he wouldn't be able to afford an apartment on his own and theres no one else out there to live with (he actually tried to get our friend to move out there with him but he won't move) and so on.... he doesnt want to have to move back in with his parents after all this time either. She knows he's been hanging out with me since we went to high school together and its been with other guys around but she doesnt know that we're hanging out away from the guys either... We're both Wiccan and last week we were up at our spot in his woods where he gave me a rose quartz ball and said to me "I have one that matches *holds them both up together* so even if nothing happens between us, we will always be connected" I just melted.. That is the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me... It just makes me sick to my stomach that he's with someone that treats him like crap when I'm here doing everything I can to show him what hes worth...
Im on vacation right now in Daytona and he just got offline from talking to me so he can get up for work and I have never missed someone like I miss him right now... Ugh.... I have to go out to the trailer to bed (don't wanna wake up my grandfather) but I'll be on tomorrow. Any advise for a love sick woman?