I got your post. I am sorry about Max. I know what it feels like. Victor was six months old. I wonder if Victor and Max actually are playing together. Thanks for posting me. I'll post you next time.
I know how you feel, it's so sad to loose a friend like Victor was... It's ok to cry if you want... I am sure Victor is happily playing at Rainbow Bridge which is a very special and beautiful place. Try to remember all the good moments you had with your kitten and think that you gave him a happy life...
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. There is nothing wrong with telling people how you feel. That's what will help you feel better. You have to share your feelings and memories about Victor. Let everyone know how much of a wonderful furry friend he was to you. We are here to help.