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Obviously, as I'm posting here, I'm new to the site. Stumbled onto it through a search for polydactyl kittens, as I'm considering adopting one.

About me, about me. Hm.
I've had cats since I was 4 years old. I found my first, my love, Casey, while walking down the dirt road at my aunt's place in northern canada. She'd been dumped in a box at the side of the road. All her littermates were dead. I petted her, she followed me home. I've had a cat in my life ever since.

My most beloved cat was Cliffy, a mutt/persian I rescued from the humane society. He was awesome. I miss him a lot. Recently, I've had Mikko, the cat who thought she was a princess.

Mikko broke my heart. She recently passed away, though they're not entirely clear on why. They suspected she had feline leukemia, but what killed her was a suspected stroke, neurological damage. I'd love to say she was a sweet cat, but she was more than a little tweaky from the day I got her. I loved her endlessly anyway, assuming that's just the way she was, accepting that that was her personality.

When I flew her out to colorado from new york, however, it got worse. She didn't seem to recover from the flight or the move, as disrupting as it must have been for her. One moment she was this sweet lil thing, on your lap, purring soaking up the scratching behind her ears, the next her eyes would completely dialate and she'd rip your arm apart, ears back, hissing.

Found out from the vet that this might have been due to neurological damage, something in her head that just wasn't right. He told me there was nothing I could have done, this was likely something she was born with. The flight out here might have triggered a stroke. (when we got off the plane she had a very hard time walking for a day, and her head swayed to the side, as it did again when she passed. At the time of the flight she'd been put on a mild tranq to keep her calm, and at the time, I assumed it was the medication)

So my baby is gone. At a time when I needed her the most.
I miscarried in late June, a baby that was very much wanted. My heart was broken and I turned to my baby girl for comfort, soothing the maternal need to love and mother on her. She died a few weeks after I miscarried.

I am lost. I tried to tell myself that I didn't want another kitten, it was too soon. But I am lost without the charasmatic presence of a cat in my life, I've had them for 30 years, always around, always my most precious beloved.

Alright, that's a pretty sad story, and I'm sorry to spring that on you first thing in the morning there. But that does bring me up to present day. I'm looking for the perfect kitty to charm his way into my house and heal my heart. Because they do, heal what aches, with absolutely unconditional love. And I'll get to be a mother at least in that way.

I've been checking the local humane society, but so far no one has "clicked". I refuse to get any cat just because I want a warm fuzzy body there, it has to be right. There has to be that moment when he looks at me and I look at him and I say yup, there's my boy. I'm looking for kittens online as well; it matters not what breed they are, just that it's right.

So that's where I stand. I'm glad I fell on this site this morning.
Thanks for listening, guys.
post #2 of 14
What a story you have, hon! Welcome to a place where we all understand how you feel about your kits, and your losses! Hope to see more of you around, and when you find the right kitty, hope you'll post pictures of your new fur-child!
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Thank you for sharing your story! I am sure you will find your new fuzzy companion in no time!

Anyway, welcome to TCS! You will find lots of tips and help as well as making a lot of friends!

I look forward to seeing you in the other forums!
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Welcome to TCS.

post #5 of 14
Hi and welcome to TCS!!!!!!!!
I hope you soon put pics of your furfriends! ..
See you on the forums
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Hi, Sierra, Serenity and I welcome you to TCS! So glad you've joined us and look forward to getting to know you better! I would be so happy to help you in any way as you learn your way around the site. Please, simply click on my user name and send me a Private Message!

post #7 of 14
Welcome to the site! I am terribly sorry for your loss! I too have has my share of hard times concerning the deaths of dear kitties, but one (or twelve) more has always showed up when I needed them too! Don't give up!
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Welcome to TCS
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Welcome to TCS I am sorry for the loss of your dear friend. We unexpectedly lost Sunni just this June, and it does take some time to heal. This site is a wonderful place to find understanding and information! Take care, see you on the forums!
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Welcome to TCS, and deepest condolences on your losses. I am sending prayers & vibes for new cats to be in your life soon! Catless is a tough way to be! In the few spaces in my life when I didn't have cats of my own, I would meet up with cats at random, just when I needed them the most. Cats have that special way of knowing who needs them. I hope to see your "Yippee, I've got a new cat!" post very,very soon! Meanwhile, you can vicariously enjoy the other TCS kitties. See you in the forums! Susan
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Sorry about your loss You will find a new kitty when the time is right Welcome and I'm glad you joined
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Hello, welcome to the site
post #13 of 14
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of all you babies. It never gets any easier does it? If you feel up to it, please post a tribute to them in our rainbow bridge forum so that we can all honour them

Please know that they are all watching down on your during this time in your life... they can still be great comfort from afar.

Originally Posted by Amaruuk
There has to be that moment when he looks at me and I look at him and I say yup, there's my boy. I'm looking for kittens online as well; it matters not what breed they are, just that it's right.
I have no doubt that Casey, Cliffy and especially Mikko will guide a boy into your heart that is in desperate need of love...

thankyou for sharing your story, I look forward to getting to know you better.

welcome again from me & my boys
post #14 of 14
Welcome & Hello! I am donna owned proudly by the incredible trio!
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