Obviously, as I'm posting here, I'm new to the site. Stumbled onto it through a search for polydactyl kittens, as I'm considering adopting one.
About me, about me. Hm.
I've had cats since I was 4 years old. I found my first, my love, Casey, while walking down the dirt road at my aunt's place in northern canada. She'd been dumped in a box at the side of the road. All her littermates were dead. I petted her, she followed me home. I've had a cat in my life ever since.
My most beloved cat was Cliffy, a mutt/persian I rescued from the humane society. He was awesome. I miss him a lot. Recently, I've had Mikko, the cat who thought she was a princess.
Mikko broke my heart. She recently passed away, though they're not entirely clear on why. They suspected she had feline leukemia, but what killed her was a suspected stroke, neurological damage. I'd love to say she was a sweet cat, but she was more than a little tweaky from the day I got her. I loved her endlessly anyway, assuming that's just the way she was, accepting that that was her personality.
When I flew her out to colorado from new york, however, it got worse. She didn't seem to recover from the flight or the move, as disrupting as it must have been for her. One moment she was this sweet lil thing, on your lap, purring soaking up the scratching behind her ears, the next her eyes would completely dialate and she'd rip your arm apart, ears back, hissing.
Found out from the vet that this might have been due to neurological damage, something in her head that just wasn't right. He told me there was nothing I could have done, this was likely something she was born with. The flight out here might have triggered a stroke. (when we got off the plane she had a very hard time walking for a day, and her head swayed to the side, as it did again when she passed. At the time of the flight she'd been put on a mild tranq to keep her calm, and at the time, I assumed it was the medication)
So my baby is gone. At a time when I needed her the most.
I miscarried in late June, a baby that was very much wanted. My heart was broken and I turned to my baby girl for comfort, soothing the maternal need to love and mother on her. She died a few weeks after I miscarried.
I am lost. I tried to tell myself that I didn't want another kitten, it was too soon. But I am lost without the charasmatic presence of a cat in my life, I've had them for 30 years, always around, always my most precious beloved.
Alright, that's a pretty sad story, and I'm sorry to spring that on you first thing in the morning there. But that does bring me up to present day. I'm looking for the perfect kitty to charm his way into my house and heal my heart. Because they do, heal what aches, with absolutely unconditional love. And I'll get to be a mother at least in that way.
I've been checking the local humane society, but so far no one has "clicked". I refuse to get any cat just because I want a warm fuzzy body there, it has to be right. There has to be that moment when he looks at me and I look at him and I say yup, there's my boy. I'm looking for kittens online as well; it matters not what breed they are, just that it's right.
So that's where I stand. I'm glad I fell on this site this morning.
Thanks for listening, guys.
About me, about me. Hm.
I've had cats since I was 4 years old. I found my first, my love, Casey, while walking down the dirt road at my aunt's place in northern canada. She'd been dumped in a box at the side of the road. All her littermates were dead. I petted her, she followed me home. I've had a cat in my life ever since.
My most beloved cat was Cliffy, a mutt/persian I rescued from the humane society. He was awesome. I miss him a lot. Recently, I've had Mikko, the cat who thought she was a princess.
Mikko broke my heart. She recently passed away, though they're not entirely clear on why. They suspected she had feline leukemia, but what killed her was a suspected stroke, neurological damage. I'd love to say she was a sweet cat, but she was more than a little tweaky from the day I got her. I loved her endlessly anyway, assuming that's just the way she was, accepting that that was her personality.
When I flew her out to colorado from new york, however, it got worse. She didn't seem to recover from the flight or the move, as disrupting as it must have been for her. One moment she was this sweet lil thing, on your lap, purring soaking up the scratching behind her ears, the next her eyes would completely dialate and she'd rip your arm apart, ears back, hissing.
Found out from the vet that this might have been due to neurological damage, something in her head that just wasn't right. He told me there was nothing I could have done, this was likely something she was born with. The flight out here might have triggered a stroke. (when we got off the plane she had a very hard time walking for a day, and her head swayed to the side, as it did again when she passed. At the time of the flight she'd been put on a mild tranq to keep her calm, and at the time, I assumed it was the medication)
So my baby is gone. At a time when I needed her the most.
I miscarried in late June, a baby that was very much wanted. My heart was broken and I turned to my baby girl for comfort, soothing the maternal need to love and mother on her. She died a few weeks after I miscarried.
I am lost. I tried to tell myself that I didn't want another kitten, it was too soon. But I am lost without the charasmatic presence of a cat in my life, I've had them for 30 years, always around, always my most precious beloved.
Alright, that's a pretty sad story, and I'm sorry to spring that on you first thing in the morning there. But that does bring me up to present day. I'm looking for the perfect kitty to charm his way into my house and heal my heart. Because they do, heal what aches, with absolutely unconditional love. And I'll get to be a mother at least in that way.
I've been checking the local humane society, but so far no one has "clicked". I refuse to get any cat just because I want a warm fuzzy body there, it has to be right. There has to be that moment when he looks at me and I look at him and I say yup, there's my boy. I'm looking for kittens online as well; it matters not what breed they are, just that it's right.
So that's where I stand. I'm glad I fell on this site this morning.
Thanks for listening, guys.
