She died in November but it feels like yesterday...

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Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry to hear how much you hurt. I wish I had something mroe comforting to say to you. I know Angie is watching over you, because she loves you jsut as much as you do her and I know that she'll be missing you too. But no-one is truly gone form this world unless they're forgotten. I can't see this wonderful, beautiful angel being forgotten.

Thankyou for sharing those happy memories with us
 

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I'm sorry for your loss. I know the feelings you are going through as my brother, who I was very close to died suddenly. I admit to being in shock and denial for awhile. I still cry when I hear any of the songs that were played at his funeral.

She sounds like she was a wonderful person!
 

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Kelly sweetie I'm so sorry you've had to endure that. Angie indeed sounds like she was an incredible person, and I'm sure she thought the same thing of you. These things can hit us again when we think we've managed to get through it, and I have to say that your post almost made me cry. I'm sure she watches over you now and with you and her family there to tell stories of how wonderful she was her spirit will live on in each one of you, and will enable her son to know that his mother was truly a special person. Talk anytime, either on the board or you can PM me. I'm always willing to listen.
 

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Originally Posted by Kellyyfaber

Angie was my best friend since the moment we met at 4 years old. We shared a love of Barbies and a love of cats. I remember when we insisted our parents got us the same pink satin jackets for Christmas. We used to save each other a seat on the school bus every morning and evening and write "Best Friends Forever" on our notebooks. We used to sit on the phone and talk for hours about absolutely NOTHING. We used to do our trigonometry homework together in high school and whisper about what guys we thought were cute. She sat beside me at my grandpa's funeral and held my hand as they lowered him down. She was truly a part of my heart and soul.

Angie was such a wonderful person. She was pure of heart and pure of soul. She would never have a bad word to say about anyone and could put a smile on your face just by walking into the room. She was always there to make me laugh, to give me encouragement, to give me strength, to give whatever she could in any way she could. She was a pediatric nurse, an angel among angels.
That is the clearest description of true love that I have seen!

I am so glad that you had the priviledge to be friends with such a wonderful lady, and am so sad for you that she is gone now. I'm sorry you didn't get to see her one more time. If you had known, you certainly would have gone to the hospital. But what matters is all the time the two of you spent together when she was here, and the love you showed to each other. And the way you can help her son know his Mom, even if she is no longer here with him.

I am very sorry for your loss. I know how a song or a memory can bring back our sad feelings. And although time heals, we still need comfort for a loss when the tears flow again.
 

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Originally Posted by rosiemac

I know, i felt awful for weeks afterwards as well thinking " why didn't i ask her more about the tests she was having done?!".

Because it was so far gone there was obviously nothing i could do, but i would have been there for her, because she must have felt so lonely that day
I am so sorry for your loss, too, Susan! How sad that she had a friend as kind and caring as you, but did not let you know how she needed you. It is always good to reach out for our friends when we are in pain, and not save it all inside.
 

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Your post brought tears to my eyes and bumps on my skin.
Your post about your best friend was a very special thing you did in her honor to keep the memories you shared alive. VERY SPECIAL.

She (I'm sure) is looking down on you and smiling. SO LOOK UP AND SMILE BACK.


~SARAH~
 

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I'm so sorry your lost such a wonderful person. The loss you feel must be enormous. The world needs more people like her.
 

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I am so sorry you experienced a loss like this. Our true friends are the dearest treasures in our lives, and I can't imagine losing my best friend.

She will always be with you, you know, forever in your heart and memories. Just hold that thought close and smile. My thoughts are with you.
 
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Originally Posted by rosiemac

I know, i felt awful for weeks afterwards as well thinking " why didn't i ask her more about the tests she was having done?!".

Because it was so far gone there was obviously nothing i could do, but i would have been there for her, because she must have felt so lonely that day
Susan, that is so sad.
I'm sorry for your loss as well.
 

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I'm so sorry for losses Kelly and Susan. It is so painful to lose a special friend. I lost one of my special friends, Hilary back in 1999. I still feel pangs in my heart when I think of her. So full of life, and so much fun.
 
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Thank you each and every one for your kind and beautiful words. There's no way I'll ever be able to find the words to tell you how much it has meant to me. Besides Paula and my husband Shy, you guys are the first ones I've really expressed these feelings to. It's so very hard for me to talk about things like this. I specialize in happy moments, not sad, painful ones.


Angie's death was a great loss to her family, friends, her kitties, coworkers, patients, and a great loss to the world. A lot of "good" left this world that day.


I really don't think the pain ever goes away, I just think you grow accustomed to it and it just seems to be less intense. I've never been the type to confront my pain and emotions "head on" so it's difficult for me. I've always been a "suppresser"

I've always wanted to be a nurse and Angie, being an RN was always encouraging me to do so. I put it off b/c I couldn't afford to go back to school. When she died, it really made me realize the urgency of really doing what you want in life. She is a big reason that I'm going back to school to be an RN. I know she would be proud that I'm finally doing it. I just hope she knows she had some part to play in it somehow. I feel so privleged to have been her friend. I'm very grateful for having known her and for her love. She helped me through some very rough times in my life and I hope that there is some sort of afterlife. I cannot imagine never seeing her again.

Although God took one friend from me, he has given all of you to me. I'm very thankful for that.
 

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Originally Posted by Kellyyfaber

I cannot imagine never seeing her again.
*cue the Boyz II Men* You'll see her (Read? It's coming ! It's coming!) one sweet day
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Sorry, this just needs a little bit of comic relief
 
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Originally Posted by ugaimes

*cue the Boyz II Men* You'll see her (Read? It's coming ! It's coming!) one sweet day
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Sorry, this just needs a little bit of comic relief
I can hear it, now.
 

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Oh Kelly...
....What can I tell you....next monday, is the firts month of aniversary of a friend who died tragically...
... as you well say until now we can belive that we can´t see him again...
.....BUT we have the Faith in GOD that someday we going to meet him again!...
...

Don´t give up chick!
you TCS Family Love you!
....
Best Regards!
 

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I'm very sorry for your loss Kelly. Remember, you TCS family is always here for you!
 

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Kelly I'm so sorry about your friend. What you wrote though was so beautiful and you spoke from your heart. Just reading it made me cry. The pain from your loss will never leave but maybe one day you can look back on what you wrote and see how your post was a tribute to her life.
 
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