[quote=Mom of Franz]
Originally Posted by pandybear
What does bipolar do? you don't have to answer if it makes you feel uncomfortable, i just don't know anything about it at all.
Felicia, I don't mind answering. The mania with me is not a "top of the world" experience that is described in a lot of literature and shown in the movies. I have a more anxious mania, feeling very fearful with non stop worry in my head. Most of the time I deal with what is called mixed episodes, mania mixed with depression. Sometimes, at least at first, the mania is almost "fun". Over spending, great ideas, talking a mile a minute, but for me it does not last long and the anxiety rolls in. I'll have irrational and obsessive thought paterns, like "i'm going to be hit and killed by a car today." Last year I went through an awful bout with rapid cycling, meaning a repetitive patern of mania, depression, mania depression, and I had to be hospitalized, because of suicidal urges. I stupidly, pretended to get better so that they would release me, I was worried about Franz and Maddie, even though a neighbor was checking in on them. But they were also thinking of ECT (shock therapy) and I wanted no part of that. I've somewhat changed my mind on ECT, and feel if the day comes that I need it, and all other options are exhausted, I might go for it.
I just left a clinical trial, testing, seroquel as an antidepressant--normally it's used for psychosis and /or bipolar disorder. After 6 moths they told me, I was not progressing as quickly as they would have liked (meaning I'm mildly depressed) so I had to leave. I had a psychiatrist that I adored for 5 years, but I could no longer afford him, no matter how many discounts he gave me. Now I have an appointment, with a new guy who accepts my insurance, so we'll see.
All in all, even though I'm not during all that great right now, I've been a lot worse and I'm just glad their are meds out there that work, most of the time. The trial and error part of meds is a PIA, but I can handle it, I have to.
Thankyou for explaining it to me, it is actually my husbands father who has it, for a long time his family just thought it was him but it got worse and worse and he ended up thinking the neighboors were after them and made the whole family stand in a line at their fence and just stare, another night they had to stand outside in a straight line and weren't allowed to move at all, he also went through a stage (he's a religious man) where he thought the end of the world was coming and he used to read revelation to the family every day without fail, it got to the stage where he made them stock up on tinned food, my husband used to feel embarresed going in to buy 20 tins of beetroot or spagetti, they finally sought help when he told them he was a prophet and the police came and took him away, he is a lot better now but he doesn't leave the house and doesn't have the phone plugged in.
there is nothing wrong with reading the bible (i'm a Christian) but he would focus on all the end of the world stuff.
even to this day, they still have a shed packed full of tinned food, this is given to each of the siblings whenever they visit but it's all old stuff and being fussy like i am i can't eat it so we just throw it out, apparently there was an agreement that we would take it so he didn't get upset.
it all has dates on it and i laugh about it to cheer my husband up but it gets hard for him, it was a difficult thing to go through.
your bipolar doesn't sound as bad as his, there must be different types like anything i suppose.
And they all come creeping out of the woodwork.... Thanks for those of you replying in here, nice to know that OCD is more common than you would think!
yep, in our droves. i do think the stigma attatched to mental illness is getting better than it once was, it has a long way to go but in the dark ages they would just throw you in a 'looney bin' and forget about you, these days there are so many more medications and treatment available, i just pray that one day they will have a treatment to get rid of anxiety disorder, the worrying all the time gets me down sometimes but i just have to deal with it.
some of the symptoms and things i have to deal with having anxiety disorder are -
Excessive worry and anxiety, occuring mnore days than not for a period of at least six months about a number of events or activities
Restlesness or feeling keyed up or on edge.
Being easily fatigued
Irritibility (worsened with pms
Sleep disturbences (difficulty falling asleep or restless unsatisfying sleep)
The mind of a person with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is like a car motor stuck on too high an idle: the person's thoughts keep running and running, with worrisome thoughts being repeated endlessly. Even if the person realizes these thoughts are irrational, he or she seems unable to stop them. At other times, thoughts may be blocked out by an overwhelming sense of worry and dread.
"I can't get my mind to stopâ€¦it's driving me crazy!"
"He's late - he was supposed to be here 20 minutes ago! Oh my God, he must have been in an accident!"
"I can't sleep - I just feel such dread â€¦ and I don't know why!"
Generalized anxiety disorder is different from normal anxiety because the anxiety persists over a long period of time and it impairs normal daily functions. An overanxious mind causes worrying, dreading and dwelling, but often prevents action. With generalized anxiety disorder, living a normal life becomes difficult because the mind will not turn off, and the worrisome and anxious thoughts take over.
Typical symptoms and behaviors associated with generalized anxiety disorder are:
chronic worry and anxiousness about events that are unlikely to occur
inability to shut off constant anxious thoughts
feelings of dread
restlessness and inability to relax
anxiety or panic attacks (see section below)
lack of energy
muscular tension, aches or soreness
stomach problems (nausea or diarrhea)
sweating or hot flashes
dizziness or lightheadedness
insomnia (trouble falling asleep or staying asleep)
shakiness or trembling
irritability or easy to startle
unrealistic assessment of problems
If you have generalized anxiety disorder, you may have better and worse times of the day, or better and worse days. As with other anxiety disorders, you may also suffer symptoms of other disorders as well, such as depression, social anxiety, or panic disorder. Generalized anxiety disorder can be treated though, and learning ways of dealing with your sources of anxiety can give you a stronger and more resilient attitude toward future trials.
and social anxiety which i also get -
People with social anxiety disorder usually experience significant emotional distress in the following situations:
Being introduced to other people
Being teased or criticized
Being the center of attention
Being watched while doing something
Meeting people in authority ("important people")
Most social encounters, especially with strangers
Going around the room (or table) in a circle and having to say something
This list is certainly not a complete list of symptoms -- other feelings may be associated with social anxiety as well.
The physiological manifestations that accompany social anxiety may include intense fear, racing heart, turning red or blushing, excessive sweating, dry throat and mouth, trembling, swallowing with difficulty, and muscle twitches. Constant, intense anxiety that does not go away is the most common feature.
People with social anxiety disorder know that their anxiety is irrational and does not make "head" sense. Nevertheless, "knowing" something is never the same thing as "believing" and "feeling" something. Thus, in people with social anxiety, thoughts and feelings of anxiety persist and show no signs of going away despite the fact that socially-anxious people "face their fears" every day of their lives.
no person with general anxiety disorder gets all the same symptoms but at least five of them, unfortionately i get more than that lol
some day it gets hard but as iv'e said before i have to deal with it, i was looking up info on it at healthy place and they have this search that says 'find your disorder'
so many people these days have one thing or another, i don't usually discuss my disorders with people i don't know but you guys are all so understanding and kind that i can talk about it and not get afraid you will think i'm crazy.