This is pretty long.. sorry
Im hoping to talk to my mom tommorrow, and I am desperate for some vibes that she leaves my limbs intact after I have said what I want to say.
Ok.. its nothing that bad... but..
This guy from a college called "Brown Collage" started calling our house. Now, I thought that it was just because I had put that I was interested in Graphic design on one of the many Guidance things I had to do. My mom picked up the phone and told me a man from Brown Collage was calling.
Now.. I am really shy, I will admit it. I have problems using the phone. I dont know why, I just do. Besides that, my mom would be bugging me every second to see what the guy was saying, so I just told her to talk to him for me.
Well after that, the guy started calling like every week, and after the first time, my mom just talked to him instead of asking me to, because she knows I am phone shy.
After about five weeks of calling, I was getting annoyed. From what my mom told me, the guy kept calling to get me to apply. I guess for some people that wouldnt have been a big deal, and they would have applied, but I couldnt. For one, I am still not sure what I want to do with my life, or what I want to go to collage for. I like working with computers, I like art, english, the environment, and animals, but I hadnt decided on anything specific, or even narrowed down a certain field of what I wanted to do. The second thing was that this brown college was way more expensive than other colleges I had been looking at.So I really wanted to pick the perfect school that was just right for me, because I have limited $$$, and cant be changing my mind you know! So understandably, I think, I was pretty annoyed at the guy for calling and calling and calling, because I thought he just wanted me to apply.
So one day, the guy called again, and I was in a bad mood that day for one thing or another. Mom talked to the guy for a little while, and then she said the guy wanted to talk to me.I thought "He just wants me to apply!!!" so I told her "Tell him to go die" assuming that my mom would not tell him those exact words.. but she did. I was annoyed because I thought he was calling for me to apply again, and I had already said that college was not affordable to me.
So yesterday during my graduation party, we started talking about what I wanted to do. I told them that I was taking a year off. i had applied to another college and gotten accepted, but my mom and I talked, and we aggreed that I should go to a college closer by for financial reasons. It was then too late to apply, because I would have to take my tests for that college, and the last test falls in when I go to Mexico. So I decided I would take the year off, work, make some money, and apply to the college that was closer next year. Then my uncle says " I still cant believe you turned down that full scholarship with room and board to brown college" and I was like "What? the guy offered me a full scholarship with room and board? "just then My mom walked onto the porch and i was like "Mom, why didnt you tell me the guy was giving me a full scholarship with room and board?" Because well.. I still am not sure what I want to do with my life, but if I had known that the school was offering me that for Graphic design, I would have taken it, because it was something I was interested in, and it was FREE. My mom got mad then (understandably) and said" Dont give me that crap!" and I was confused because I didnt remember her telling me this!!
One thing you people might not know is that Ihave a horrible memory, I forget things left and right. So I thought for a moment, hm maybe I forgot that she told me? No, I thought, I definitely wouldhave remembered something like that. And I know I would have, because that was something big and important... I might forget where I set my glass the second before, but I wouldnt forget something like a full scholarship...
Now I am not blaming my mom for this at all. I know I should have talked to the guy myself. I just cant help that I am so shy sometimes.
Yeah I deleted some of it because I am stupid.. if anyone would just delete this whole board I would be very greatful
Edit: Yeah I am stupid.. I remembered that I really had forgotten. i think I need some pills. Maybe I have ADD/ADHD I dont know. Yeah... I forgot that I had come to the conclusion that I really wasnt sure if I wanted to go into graphic design??? I really do need a catscan.. seriously.. there is something wrong with my brain functions....
Oh and I was all excited after I came to the conclusion I didnt think I wanted to be a graphic designer, because the same day at school I had talked to the counselor and we had decided I should just try various classes at a university so thats why I was like "eh " and yeah Im stupid please feel free to hit me with a frying pan.
I feel all emberassed now because I freaked out when it turns out I had decided myself not to take the scholarship
How could I forget something like that??? What is wrong with my mind functions?
Im hoping to talk to my mom tommorrow, and I am desperate for some vibes that she leaves my limbs intact after I have said what I want to say.
Ok.. its nothing that bad... but..
This guy from a college called "Brown Collage" started calling our house. Now, I thought that it was just because I had put that I was interested in Graphic design on one of the many Guidance things I had to do. My mom picked up the phone and told me a man from Brown Collage was calling.
Now.. I am really shy, I will admit it. I have problems using the phone. I dont know why, I just do. Besides that, my mom would be bugging me every second to see what the guy was saying, so I just told her to talk to him for me.
Well after that, the guy started calling like every week, and after the first time, my mom just talked to him instead of asking me to, because she knows I am phone shy.
After about five weeks of calling, I was getting annoyed. From what my mom told me, the guy kept calling to get me to apply. I guess for some people that wouldnt have been a big deal, and they would have applied, but I couldnt. For one, I am still not sure what I want to do with my life, or what I want to go to collage for. I like working with computers, I like art, english, the environment, and animals, but I hadnt decided on anything specific, or even narrowed down a certain field of what I wanted to do. The second thing was that this brown college was way more expensive than other colleges I had been looking at.So I really wanted to pick the perfect school that was just right for me, because I have limited $$$, and cant be changing my mind you know! So understandably, I think, I was pretty annoyed at the guy for calling and calling and calling, because I thought he just wanted me to apply.
So one day, the guy called again, and I was in a bad mood that day for one thing or another. Mom talked to the guy for a little while, and then she said the guy wanted to talk to me.I thought "He just wants me to apply!!!" so I told her "Tell him to go die" assuming that my mom would not tell him those exact words.. but she did. I was annoyed because I thought he was calling for me to apply again, and I had already said that college was not affordable to me.
So yesterday during my graduation party, we started talking about what I wanted to do. I told them that I was taking a year off. i had applied to another college and gotten accepted, but my mom and I talked, and we aggreed that I should go to a college closer by for financial reasons. It was then too late to apply, because I would have to take my tests for that college, and the last test falls in when I go to Mexico. So I decided I would take the year off, work, make some money, and apply to the college that was closer next year. Then my uncle says " I still cant believe you turned down that full scholarship with room and board to brown college" and I was like "What? the guy offered me a full scholarship with room and board? "just then My mom walked onto the porch and i was like "Mom, why didnt you tell me the guy was giving me a full scholarship with room and board?" Because well.. I still am not sure what I want to do with my life, but if I had known that the school was offering me that for Graphic design, I would have taken it, because it was something I was interested in, and it was FREE. My mom got mad then (understandably) and said" Dont give me that crap!" and I was confused because I didnt remember her telling me this!!
One thing you people might not know is that Ihave a horrible memory, I forget things left and right. So I thought for a moment, hm maybe I forgot that she told me? No, I thought, I definitely wouldhave remembered something like that. And I know I would have, because that was something big and important... I might forget where I set my glass the second before, but I wouldnt forget something like a full scholarship...
Now I am not blaming my mom for this at all. I know I should have talked to the guy myself. I just cant help that I am so shy sometimes.
Yeah I deleted some of it because I am stupid.. if anyone would just delete this whole board I would be very greatful
Edit: Yeah I am stupid.. I remembered that I really had forgotten. i think I need some pills. Maybe I have ADD/ADHD I dont know. Yeah... I forgot that I had come to the conclusion that I really wasnt sure if I wanted to go into graphic design??? I really do need a catscan.. seriously.. there is something wrong with my brain functions....
Oh and I was all excited after I came to the conclusion I didnt think I wanted to be a graphic designer, because the same day at school I had talked to the counselor and we had decided I should just try various classes at a university so thats why I was like "eh " and yeah Im stupid please feel free to hit me with a frying pan.
I feel all emberassed now because I freaked out when it turns out I had decided myself not to take the scholarship
How could I forget something like that??? What is wrong with my mind functions?