Green eyes, I feel so bad for you. Our beloved Freddie lived just 7 months. He was FeLV positive and we didn't know that when we got him as a gift for our oldest cat. Freddie waffled between terribly high fevers 106.5 and URIs the last two moths. We treated him with everything, even larger does of Baytril to ward off infections, which can be really risky. In the end, he rejected his chicken broth and didn't eat for days. He was telling us it was time to end his suffering. He just had lost too much weight, way too much, and he just couldn't fight it anymore. Freddie was an adorable, lighthearted gray Tabby with brown eyes, and when the little pink patch under his bronze nose faded from color - we just knew it was time.
We were lucky to have a country vet come to the house for a very quiet, loving but heartbreaking afternoon. Freddie sailed into heaven in under 2.0 seconds, he was that ready to go. We have him in our backyard, in the sunny place between the shrubby knoll and in view of his mom's house across the street. He loved us so much - he really hung on for US, he was like that in spirit, but we could see this and then we knew his suffering was just too much. I think only you will know the right time, but to us it seemed like all he did was suffer. The light had gone out of his eyes, where even when he had fevers he still had the light, but not when he started to turn away food.
My heart is with you and just the fact that you joined TCS and posted your sadness and situation here shows you have great courage and compassion.
I am here if you need me.
Here he is: