Most days when I am on my own and not seeing my wife or son, I tend to spend the time sat in a quiet church yard praying things were different as to what they are for me. I pray Carol and I would sort things out and we would all be reunited as a familly (I pray very hard believe me - leaves me in tears most times). Anyway, its a very quiet personal place thats incredibly beautiful and therefore,some place I would like to share with you all. Please find enclosed a link to a photo of the church.
http://www.genuki.org.uk/big/eng/YKS...nStMary_2.html
I get a tremendous amount of something there, I dont know if anyone listens at all, but sat in the quiet of the yard yesterday was very moving. The blossom off the cherry trees was falling on me and it was like Carol and my wedding day all those years ago with the confetti. How I wish it would be for us again.
So, heres to more trips there - I do go most days off, some evenings, looking for the answers. The right things to say. I am trying to become a new person, someone who Carol will see on a weekly basis and start seeing what shes missing. I pray so much for us all as a familly to be together it hurts.
Any advice on becoming a new person / man and how to do it would be great.
In the meantime, say one for Carol and our son to come back to me and enjoy the photo.
I will be there on saturday again.
Yesterday, I met the vicar- really lovely man, told me to be patient.
Kev
http://www.genuki.org.uk/big/eng/YKS...nStMary_2.html
I get a tremendous amount of something there, I dont know if anyone listens at all, but sat in the quiet of the yard yesterday was very moving. The blossom off the cherry trees was falling on me and it was like Carol and my wedding day all those years ago with the confetti. How I wish it would be for us again.
So, heres to more trips there - I do go most days off, some evenings, looking for the answers. The right things to say. I am trying to become a new person, someone who Carol will see on a weekly basis and start seeing what shes missing. I pray so much for us all as a familly to be together it hurts.
Any advice on becoming a new person / man and how to do it would be great.
In the meantime, say one for Carol and our son to come back to me and enjoy the photo.
I will be there on saturday again.
Yesterday, I met the vicar- really lovely man, told me to be patient.
Kev