I am coming up to week 7 of being on my own and I have to admit, there has not been one single day that I wanted any of it. I hate being alone, coupled with the hurt and lonliness of it all and the fact that I miss my wife and son so badly every day. However, shes made her mind up and I keep getting divorce papers through the post every week confirming this and that.
Have any of you gone through this, in the position that you never wanted it and how long till the pain stopped hurting you ?
I see my son tomorrow - brilliant, and yet when I see him or the time comes, I am terrified and scared, upset and screaming in my heart.. Hes taken it all brilliantly and hes with his mum and his grandparents are all but meters away in some cases. I want to hold him so tight and not let go. I love and miss him so much as I do Carol (but that wont happen as she does not miss me). When we are together, I photograph him playing all the time as thats all I have till the following week. When we say goodbye and his door closes, I drive away and cry for ages until I am fit to drive again on the M62.
Is it really normal to be in this much pain in my heart all the time. Even when the divorce is finalised - possibly in a few weeks now - fast huh? I doubt I can ever trust a woman again. Is that normal?
Kev
with a lost soul, deeply heartbroken and incredibly lonely
Have any of you gone through this, in the position that you never wanted it and how long till the pain stopped hurting you ?
I see my son tomorrow - brilliant, and yet when I see him or the time comes, I am terrified and scared, upset and screaming in my heart.. Hes taken it all brilliantly and hes with his mum and his grandparents are all but meters away in some cases. I want to hold him so tight and not let go. I love and miss him so much as I do Carol (but that wont happen as she does not miss me). When we are together, I photograph him playing all the time as thats all I have till the following week. When we say goodbye and his door closes, I drive away and cry for ages until I am fit to drive again on the M62.
Is it really normal to be in this much pain in my heart all the time. Even when the divorce is finalised - possibly in a few weeks now - fast huh? I doubt I can ever trust a woman again. Is that normal?
Kev
with a lost soul, deeply heartbroken and incredibly lonely