My Corkie is now an Angel

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She "supposedly" developed a Bladder infecion a few days ago and then I noticed she was having problmes breathing. Vets shrugged that off. 2 Days Later she appeard to not be able to catch her breath and her little sides were just heaving in and out and so fast. I kept calling the vet untill they got us in.

THis time I got the main Vet and he looked concerned as he listend to her breathe. Then he said it could be cancer but he doubted thtat as her coloring was too good. He said she had cylothorax - fluid in her chest that presses against her lungs and stops them from expanding and taking in air.

He pullled over a quart of fluid from her and said "see she is breating much better right now". Only she was not! BY Sunday she could not even eat her treats or drink water. They had shaved her sides so I worried about her being cold. Vet scoffed at that and said cats had no problems living outside in COLD weather. I still put a heater on next to her

Yesterday she could not get comfortable, and could barely raise her head. I took her out in the front and she enjoyed lying down out there, and also in the back. Finally I worried about her being cold and brought her back in. She could barely walk. I called the Vets and MADE them see her. We went to the oher offfice where this "laid back" Vet said her temp was so low it did not register, and it would be better to put her down. He said pathology on the fluds suggested cancer.

She was so terrifeied she clung to me like she was saying "mommy don't let them hurt me again! I am scared"! My heart broke and then they took her bck for a LONG time and she came back with a catheter and they stuck the needle inand she was gone. Even in death this couragous little girl looked so beautful she took my breath away. I cannot believe I was so lucky as to be her mommy!

NOW I cannot belive she is gone. She has not returned to give me a sign so I am thinking she is angy at me.

I also think if not for uncarig and unexperienced Vets she would be with me still happy and healthy. I miss her so much I am in Agony. HOW i wish I knew for sure there is a Heaven and I will see her again. How do I live the rest of my life without my Precious Little Miss Incredible to hold and kiss and dance with and sing to!

I miss you my sweet baby - I love you so much - please know I only wanted to make you feel better!

Little Earthreal Corkie lying in computer room partly in shade and partly in sun – looking toward the glass patio doors


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Oh I'm sure she knew you were helping her not to suffer anymore, My Heart goes out to you. But feel assured she's is at Rainbow Bridge feeling very well , I will have you in my Prayers during this very tough time.
 

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Oh God, Heidi! I saw you posting here, was almost afraid to come and see. I know I don't have any words that can take away the pain that you're feeling right now, I just want you to know that I'm praying for you. If you need to talk about it, just drop me a private message, I'm going to be online here all day. {{{{HUGS}}}}
 

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Oh Heidi,

She is not mad at you! I have had so many die in the twenty years I have been rescuing, and only a few have given signs back. Don't take that as you not seeing anything meaning that she is angry.

I am glad you pushed those vets to see her. Sometimes vets don't give cat owners enough credit for knowing when it is the time to let go. You gave her peace at the end- understand that she knows this and you WILL see her again-
 

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Oh Heidi,
I am so sorry about what has happened to your little girl. That was far too sudden a tragedy. I am sure, though, that she is looking down on you with nothing but love and happy memories of her will find you during your darkest of times.
 

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I am so sorry to hear about Corkie. I know with all my heart she is at the Rainbow Bridge and will wait patiently for the time when she can meow at you with love. I know that right now all her love is traveling through time and space to you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Tricia
 

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My heart goes out to you! RIP beautiful Corkie!
 

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I can understand your anger and frustration, but you did the right thing, and if she had that much fluid in her lungs it would probably indicate an irreversible condition. My RIP Sheba had fluid drawn a couple of times at hte end to ease her breathing, but it was only postponing the inevitable. You did the right thing, even if the vets were not as sympathetic as they could have been. May she find peace.
 

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My prayers go out to you over Corkie. My Casper went to the Rainbow Bridge Monday afternoon so I can feel for you and where you're at right now. Try to reflect on the good times. That's what I did all day yesterday and for me it has helped. Connie
 

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Oh, how sad.
I am so sorry you lost you beautiful Corkie and so suddenly. You will be in my thoughts.
RIP Corkie.
 

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Dear Heidi, I am so sorry about Corkie, I remember you posting about other losses at the "other cat forum" and now Corkie too. I can only say that I believe in the Rainbow Bridge and in a loving God who gave us animals to love. I believe that we will see them again when we pass from this world just as we will see our human loved ones who have "passed over". Corkie isn't mad at you, she knows how much you loved her and tried to help her. I pray that God will give you peace about this. Hugs in your time of sorrow.
 

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I am so sorry you lost your Corkie
 
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Thanks all of you! I am afraid I am not doing too well! I miss her more than I ever thought possible. Worse is the Vet called and said she had cancer! I have no idea where but it had metastised.

My young boy kitty looks so much like her I see him and forget she is gone and think he is her. I have had to move kitty trees as when I see him sleeping on her's he looks so much like her I break into tears. She was the most courageous little girl EVER!
 

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I am so sorry to hear about Corkie -- please know you are in my thoughts. I know it may not feel like it, but you did do the right thing and she is no longer suffering.
 

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I am so sorry. I just went through it a month ago, and I know how painful it is. If her cancer was that bad, then you know you did the right thing. She is not mad at you, she knows you set her free from the pain.

My Snoopy hasn't come back to me with any signs either, and Snoopy and I were about as close as a human and cat could be, for twenty years. Please don't think your sweet girl is mad at you. You set her free from the pain.
 

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Hugs to you and bless you for letting her leave her old broken body so she may return in a new healthy one!! You will find her again.
 

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I agre. She knows you were only trying to help her. My prayers are with you.

Originally Posted by halfpint

Oh I'm sure she knew you were helping her not to suffer anymore, My Heart goes out to you. But feel assured she's is at Rainbow Bridge feeling very well , I will have you in my Prayers during this very tough time.
 
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