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gratefulbear629

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Do any of you ever feel like you're in a bad dream and you're just waiting for the moment where you'll wake up and sigh and thank god it's not real?

Sometimes I tell myself that's what it has to be. Friday night I was sleeping on the couch and got a phone call from a police dept. in Florida telling me that my dad had died. I'm still not even sure what happened. I've gotten two different stories. And I won't find out until Monday when the medical examiner calls me. They said it happened on Wednesday and I have to wait until Monday to find out.

I am still in such shock about this. It just can't be real. This is the second funeral I have to plan and I'm only 19. There's just something not right about that.

We were planning to take a road trip down to Florida to see him this summer.

I can't sleep, I can barely eat. I just have no idea what to do with myself. I feel like I'm going to go crazy.
 

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What a horrible shock for you.(((hugs))) to you hon.

It is never easy losing a parent, especially so unexpectedly. Hope you get answers on Monday.

Come here and talk when you need to, we are all here for you. Will keep you in my thoughts.
 

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Oh, Grateful Bear - my heart goes out to you! I lost my nephew due to a murder by a stranger when he was 18 & my whole family was too distraugt; we had to wait for the autopsy before we could plan the funeral; when it was time for me to meet the funeral home, I stopped on the way to help a lady with car trouble & she went with me - it turned out that she had just done a funeral for her aunt & really helped me plan out a nice service. I even found a bagpiper to play "Amazing Grace" at the gravesite, which was really moving. The following year, my brother was killed in a collison with a drunk driver & my sister-in-law was notified by the hospital that he had died, and was an organ donor, but they needed her to come down & fill out paperwork; she got so hysterical at the hospital, a policewoman took her home. I am sorry that you have to be bearing this burden; you are so young! And I will warn you now, leaving the graveside is very difficult - please have a close friend with you!! And be sure to cry & grieve, if you feel like it- all our furbabies across the Bridge will hear, & will come a-running to meet your Dad & let him know that we at TCS are here for you!! Perhaps a visit to the Crossing the Bridge Forum will have some comfort waiting for you. Please PM me anytime!! You are in my thoughts & prayers...Hugs, more hugs,Susan

Originally Posted by GratefulBear629

Do any of you ever feel like you're in a bad dream and you're just waiting for the moment where you'll wake up and sigh and thank god it's not real?

Sometimes I tell myself that's what it has to be. Friday night I was sleeping on the couch and got a phone call from a police dept. in Florida telling me that my dad had died. I'm still not even sure what happened. I've gotten two different stories. And I won't find out until Monday when the medical examiner calls me. They said it happened on Wednesday and I have to wait until Monday to find out.

I am still in such shock about this. It just can't be real. This is the second funeral I have to plan and I'm only 19. There's just something not right about that.

We were planning to take a road trip down to Florida to see him this summer.

I can't sleep, I can barely eat. I just have no idea what to do with myself. I feel like I'm going to go crazy.
 

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Oh no, Katie! This is absolutely tragic! Oh how horrible this must be for you, what an unbelievable dreadful shock. If only there were words to take away the pain you must be feeling. You must just wish you could wake up and make this all just go away. I wish I could relieve some of this burden that you are suddenly forced to bare. I am right here with you, Katie, a friend who truly cares for you. Please pm me anytime at all..
 

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Katie, I am so sorry! What shocking and tragic news...

You must be so confused right now
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
 

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Katie,

What a horrible burden for you to bare right now.
My thoughts and prayers are with you . I hope that you find some comfort in knowing that you have support and a listening ear from the members here.
 

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Oh, Katie! Hon, I cannot say that I know how you feel, because I've never lost a parent, and so suddenly at that. But, I know the loss has to be great, I can only try to imagine it, and that thought brings me to tears for you, my friend. I will be praying for you, for the strength, both emotionally and physically that you will need to deal with this, and please remember that if you need to talk, all of us here at TCS love you, and will be glad to listen, whether you want to cry, scream or whatever. If you want to talk in private, like Stephanie said, feel free to PM me, I won't be far away! {{{{HUGS}}}}
 

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I'm so sorry sweetheart. Life can deal us some harsh blows. Just like everyone said, we're all here for you and love you very much. We are all concerned for your welfare and truly hope that you get some answers tomorrow.
Lots of hugs and prayers coming your way. I'm terribly sorry for your loss.
 

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Oh I'm so sorry. What a hard thing to have to go through, especially so unexpectedly. Like everyone said, we're here for you if you need to cry, vent, explode, etc... other than that, I know there's nothing else I can say to make this better for you, but you are in my thoughts and prayers.
 

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Oh, Katie... I'm so sorry to hear about your dad... I hope whatever the medical examiner says will ease your mind a little... You and your family are in my prayers... We're all here if you need to talk...
 

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Katie i'm so, so sorry to hear your sad news


I lost my dad when i was only 24 and the only way i can describe it was like having a slap in the face!. Like you i felt numb, and i always remember waking up the following day thinking did i dream it?, i had to ask my husband if my dad had really gone?!.

Try and eat something sweetie because i know that you don't feel like it but you still have to keep your strength up.

PM me anytime and you know were all here for you
 

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I'm so sorry, Katie. I know exactly what you mean about wondering if you're dreaming, having had to deal with my brothers' deaths at a young age. My heart is with you. The ME will probably release your dad for burial rather quickly, but the autopsy results can be a long time coming.
 

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Sweetie I wish I could give you a hug in real life so this will have to do

I'm sorry just isn't enough, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers and that you are strong and WILL get through this. I am here for you anytime you need.
Lots of love
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Thank you guys so much for your replies. It really does mean so much to me. I am so glad to be able to come here. But now comes the tough part, my uncle and I have to go down to Florida on Monday or Tuesday and collect his belongings. We will have a new member of the family up here too.. his dog, Bear.

Since I am considered next of kin I get to decide what is done. So I've decided to have him cremated and have a memorial for him on Saturday with the family. And when the weather is nice, I am going to take his ashes to a place here called Stony Brook. He used to go there with a friend of his years ago and he used to take me there all the time when I was younger. It was his favorite fishing spot.

Hopefully I will get some answers tomorrow. And I want to thank you guys again.. I appreciate it so much.
 

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thats such a nice idea.

Remember to take care of yourself to and eat something.

i wish i could say more to help you. if you ever need anyone i'm only a pm away.
 
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Well it looks like he drowned. He was in poor health.. he only had about 20% lung capacity and had been in the hospital a few times the past couple months for respiratory arrest. So we think he had an attack and fell in the water and drowned. Everything isn't clear because they said most of the people there left before the medical examiner got there.

We are hoping to fly down tomorrow afternoon -- weather permitting. I already got most of what we need for Bear at petsmart today. I'm excited to see him.

Thanks again everyone.
 

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Oh Katie, my heart goes out to you! I lost my father almost 2 years ago and miss him very much. If you ever need to talk, I"m here. We all are!
 

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Katie, you sound so strong. I wish this was a very bad dream you'd be waking up from very, very soon. Just remember that there are lots of people here who care for you and only want the best for you. My thoughts are with you as you journey through this week.
 
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