The situation is as follows: On Friday just gone, my wife who means everything to me and more told me that she no longer loves me and wants a seperation. Things seemed to settle over the weekend, however, when I cam home monday, she would not let me in and I saw my son through a window. I love my wife so much and would die for her, however, shes solid in her mind and has no intention of wanting to sort things out at all. Consequently, I have been in the car a lot, slept there and also in a hotel room off the m1 for the last few days. To say I am devastated is an understatement, I am lower than ever and I have been low before. Last night, I wanted to die, I have nothing to live for without them, and yet when I prayed for it, it never happens does it.
So, I am at this minute of no fixed abode, I have very limited access to a pc - I am alone, heart broken, crying more than I can imagine. I ate last night - first thing proper in days. No appetite, I just want my wife and son and a chance and its killing me in side.
I miss them so much with every beat of my heart. I have stopped wearing a wedding ring now, no longer feel in the sense of the word married.
So thats the situation, alone and distressed and devastated.
Start praying for my wife - I so badly want her to change her mind and give it a chance.
Take care you all and hope you all understand now.
been in the office since around 6.00 - nothing else to do but weep and pray