Not that I know much about your situation, just parts of what I've read here.
I understand that finding jobs in smal towns is hard. I live in one, and our economy sucks. I was lucky though, when I moved back here, I got offered a job by a woman I used to work for. I took it (even though the only three people who spoke english were my bosses and me). I worked it, until my mom went into a coma. I stayed home to help take care of her, they said she was dying. She came out of the coma, and came home (allergy to med, or overdose) I got a job at a petstore, luckily I had worked at a petstore before. The owner was also a fried from Jr High. So I was in. I worked there until I got fired (long story). I needed a job bad, we had no electricity or gas. NO hot water, we were taking showers at my inlaws. I got a job as a waitress. I made good money... Why? Because I did my best to always smile. I make it a point to try to make everyone I come in contact with smile, or laugh. I try to make people who look down smile. I try to brighten other's moods. I found that people like that. People started liking me. The truth wasn't THEM, it was me. I started liking me. I quit my waitressing job because of a stupid 19 yr old hick that thought women were sex toys. I will leave it at that. My hubby heard a comment he made to me while we were in the kitchen. Hubby was sitting at a table on the opposite side of building. I walked out, and he was walking in. He told my boss I quit, because she said that it was okay what he had said. She is Korean. She thinks that men can do or say what they want. So hubby quit me. He didn't want me working with that. I was out of work for a little bit, by this time we had electricity.. it was only a year ago. One year ago I lived in a basement.
The job I have now I got only because my friend was managing, so I got hired. I have stayed, even though I have an itchy rash on my arm, and have had it for a long while now. I just put lotion on it. I am allergic to the rinse stuff. We have rubber gloves there, but I just deal with it. I've stayed there even though people have lied to get others fired. People can be rude. People can be mean. It gets really hot. It gets really stressful. When I was younger I quit a waitressing job because it was too stressful. The lady said when I told her that I would have trouble finding and keeping a job. She was right, but I didn't care. I had people who supported me. It wasn't until I was married and living away from everyone that suddenly it was all up to me. If I work more hours, and get more money, I can have more stuff. If I take more time off to play and have fun, I don't have as much to show for it.
My mom passed away in 2001. The shockwave from that grew me up really quick. Suddenly the one person in the world that would always take me in and love me was gone. I still have people like that, but she was my angel. I was sad, I was depressed, I was hating life. I let my situation get the better of me. I went to work, worked few hours, and earned low wages. We lost my mom's house. We almost lost everything we owned, if not for good friends that we had made by helping them when they needed it, we would not beliving in a nice place now. We even have a library and a fireplace! That excites me and makes me happy.
Please don't give up on everyone here. They just want you to stop and think. I didn't pull my head out until a year and a half ago. I didn't start trying to better my situation until then.
I've been where you are, but I've got one thing on you. I've been alive a while longer. I sat on my behind and watched a few years pass me by. I knew my mom was going to die early. I spent a long time mourning for her coming death. Maybe 7 or 8 years. I just let all that time pass me by while I watched, and waited, and let that control my life. Now I wish I had occupied my time with learning. Even if not from school, on the net. There is sooooo much info available.
To get degrees and stuff you need to pay, but you can still learn. I've been looking up lots of stuff. Not that you have a lot of time on the net.
Things do get better. You can sit and wait for it to just happen. Sometimes it will, but it's not definate. You could sit a week, to 100 years. OR... you can get up and MAKE things happen. First thing, you have to find value in yourself.
Who cares if the whole world, and everyone on the net gives up on you. The ONLY person who really matters is YOU! The only person that will be with you always without fail, is YOU! The only person who will always be there when you need someone, no questions asked... YOU! I learned that. If you can believe in yourself, you can make ANYTHING happen. You just have to WANT it hard enough.
Humans are fickle. They come, and they go. Some will stab you in the back. Some will offer you a shoulder when you need it. Some will be there always and love you more then you will ever understand. Stop worrying about the world, and think of yourself.
What is important to YOU? You are worth more then you think. It's so hard to learn that. It doesn't feel like anyone even tries, or cares to understand. A few of us have been in similar spots.
Sorry, I've said everything you've heard a million times. One day you will believe. It may come when you hit 18. It may come when you hit 21. It may come when you hit 30. The sooner it comes, the more life you will have to enjoy it.