Well, it's officially February 14, 2005... Today is the start of a whole new chapter in my life that I am very excited about
... I am starting my new job today, which will be a lot of fun but, more importantly, will enable me to finally become completely financially independent so Malakai and I can move out of my fathers house into my own apartment so I can finally take control of my own life... That move wont happen until April but today is the beginning of that journey...
I've also decided to restart my diet... Originally, I lost 70lbs and managed to maintain my weight for a year but the stress of the past few months caused me to gain 20lbs back and I'm disgusted
... So, I am determined to go back on my diet and lose the 20lbs that I gained back plus another 60lbs, at least...
Tonight, I spoke to my ex boyfriend, Michael... He told me that he is officially dating the girl that he's been seeing for a month and that they've taken their relationship to the next level, so to speak... So, I've come to terms with the fact that I am officially the ex-girlfriend and I have no real importance in his life anymore, despite the 4 years that we spent together... I have closed that chapter of my life and I'm okay with it....
The truth is I am in love with another man
... I have been for several months and it's a feeling that I can't even begin to describe... I can't possibly find the words to do justice to the way my heart feels when I hear his voice, see his face or kiss his lips
... No matter what happens between Adrian and I, it will be whatever is meant to happen but, in my heart, I know that we're meant to be a part of each others lives... He's been there for me when no one else was, he didnt leave my side for a moment during the hardest time in my life and for that, I love him...
And so begins a new chapter in my life... All I ask from all of you, who have become like a virtual family to me, is that you send {{{Vibes}}} of luck, encouragement and happiness my way... I will certainly need them... And, thank you all for being here for me when I need you...
I've also decided to restart my diet... Originally, I lost 70lbs and managed to maintain my weight for a year but the stress of the past few months caused me to gain 20lbs back and I'm disgusted
Tonight, I spoke to my ex boyfriend, Michael... He told me that he is officially dating the girl that he's been seeing for a month and that they've taken their relationship to the next level, so to speak... So, I've come to terms with the fact that I am officially the ex-girlfriend and I have no real importance in his life anymore, despite the 4 years that we spent together... I have closed that chapter of my life and I'm okay with it....
The truth is I am in love with another man
And so begins a new chapter in my life... All I ask from all of you, who have become like a virtual family to me, is that you send {{{Vibes}}} of luck, encouragement and happiness my way... I will certainly need them... And, thank you all for being here for me when I need you...