We need to make a decision.

Originally Posted by Vlad

Thanks for all the lovely replies.

Well, it is the last day. Both of us took a half day off work and all of tomorrow. We have been feeding our little girl-cat with all sorts of treats from turkey to ham to steak. I keep thinking about what is going to happen. We have asked the vet to come round to see us, that way she will be in her home surrounded by our love. It will be all I can do not to knock the syringe out of the vet's hand. I want to gather her up in my coat and run away with her.....but you can't run away from yourself.

I will come home from work on friday to an empty house. No little paws and no welcoming mew. That realisation is the worst thing of all, being alone.

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i like that you can have it done in her home.
for me, the grieving is easier to take when i have other pets around. you'll have to make your own decision, but you might think about getting a couple of new kitties to help fill that void.

Dear little Suzy!! I wish that the cancer hadn't happened to her. Please remember that cats & dogs instinctively hide suffering as much as possible. You will be there to hold her, and you are giving her the best gift a friend can give - you love her enough to let her go, peacefully and easily, without knowing the torment that would otherwise await her. And we at TCS will be here for you & your lady just as all our kitties & loved ones on the other side of the Bridge will be there for Suzy, waiting for us to join them.

I am in tears for you Vlad, your family and Suzy. You are going the right thing by her, remember that. A candle will be lit for this little girl to guide her home. We may never know why, but we have to understand that for an unknown reason, it is Suzy's time.
Be strong for yourself and Suzy~

I am crying as I type this. I'm so very sorry you have been forced to make this incredibly painful decision, and putting your feelings aside, relieve precious Suzy of the pain she is experiencing so that she can be healthy and happy in Heaven. Your little angel is so beautiful. What amazing love you are showing her. You are in my prayers.

My thoughts and prayers go with you to help you through this day.

Dev & Crew

I'd like to make this post in honor and memory of

Suzy
Rest In Everlasting Peace, Suzy!

God be with you and your family for your loss!

My little girl is gone. I can't find anything to stop the gnawing, tearing, wrenching pain inside. The silence in the house is deafening. We are sat on the sofa just staring. I can't believe she is gone. I can't believe I could not save her. She just went limp in my arms. I love her so much.

RIP Suzy

Originally Posted by Vlad

My little girl is gone. I can't find anything to stop the gnawing, tearing, wrenching pain inside. The silence in the house is deafening. We are sat on the sofa just staring. I can't believe she is gone. I can't believe I could not save her. She just went limp in my arms. I love her so much.

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I know it will be hard at first, but, I know you'll come to realize the help you gave her... there is nothing anyone can say to make you feel better, except that you did the right thing.... We are all here for you to give you support, a shoulder to cry on, or just friendship, we're here.

Thanks, I appreciate it. I have been through bereavement before with people, and even a child, so I know that it does heal and it does take time. I just wish I could go to sleep and week up in a few weeks feeling better. Thing is, as with all grief I don't want it to be better as it is almost a betrayal of Suzy for it to not hurt. All normal feelings at this stage to be sure but it does not make them any easier to handle. Urgh.....

I have been away for ten days and this was one of the first threads I read on my return. I am so sorry for you and I hope that the support the TCS can give you will ease the pain a little. But it is the most terrible thing that can happen to any of us, and we all go through it alone in the end. Your girl is happy now, that is the main thing. You did the right thing by her, and you have to hang on to that. Good vibes from all of us here are coming your way to help with the aftermath.

Originally Posted by Vlad

Thanks, I appreciate it. I have been through bereavement before with people, and even a child, so I know that it does heal and it does take time. I just wish I could go to sleep and week up in a few weeks feeling better. Thing is, as with all grief I don't want it to be better as it is almost a betrayal of Suzy for it to not hurt. All normal feelings at this stage to be sure but it does not make them any easier to handle. Urgh.....

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I know it will feel like you are betraying Suzy by not mourning her after a while, I went through the same thing with Thunder, but she will be happy the sooner you get over her. I felt so bad when I took in Billy a week after Thunder died... I felt like I was replacing him... but now, I've come to realize that he would've wanted me to do it, so that I can be happy. Suzy wants you to be happy, too. She's the happiest she could possibly be right now... she's in Heaven! And she wants you to be happy, also!

Be glad in knowing she's in no more pain.

Cassie

I'm so sorry Vlad. Her photo shows such a beautiful little girl. All thoughts and prayers with you.

I am sorry you had to make this tragic decision for Suzy.Although you know in your heart it is for the best of reasons and you did not want her to suffer it is still painful.
You are all in my thoughts. In time you will be able to smile at the photos of Suzy without the constant nagging ache.
Jump high Suzy - know that you are loved and will be missed by those you leave behind.

Originally Posted by CJandBilly

I know it will feel like you are betraying Suzy by not mourning her after a while, I went through the same thing with Thunder, but she will be happy the sooner you get over her. I felt so bad when I took in Billy a week after Thunder died... I felt like I was replacing him... but now, I've come to realize that he would've wanted me to do it, so that I can be happy. Suzy wants you to be happy, too. She's the happiest she could possibly be right now... she's in Heaven! And she wants you to be happy, also!

Be glad in knowing she's in no more pain.

Cassie

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exactly my thoughts! i still feel that the reason Cable came to me was because God sent her, knowing Mouse would be leaving me at Christmas.

It is now bedtime. I want to change her water and put some brekkies out, then find her on the footstool and let her know that we both love her very much. I did that every night that we had her as the last thing before bed. Tonight I cannot. I want to cry and run after her. Leave the cat flap open, leave some water out for her. That would be most unheathy for my acceptance of the situation, however.

Unhealthy as it is, all I am fixating on at the moment is her dying in my arms in the seconds it took, and lying her down on her blanket for us the take to the crematorium. I know I should be trying to remember the good times and all the cuddles, but I now have that awful scene burnt into my memory. We owed it to her to be cuddling her as she slipped away, but that very moment has done a lot of long term damage to me. Still, I OWED it to her to be with her, and I would not swop how I feel now for not being with her right to the end. Goodnight little one. We both love you very much.

With one euthanasia it took me a long time to get away from the final moment.But it does go away, and remember that in that final moment within those eyes crept the look of gratitude for the love strong enough that it knew it could bear the pain of saying goodbye-

I´m so sorry about Suzi, Viad my condolences.....

so sorry about Suzy, RIP sweet angel....