You and Gary are with out a doubt, angels!
Fwan - you're post brought tears to my eyesOriginally Posted by fwan
I didnt mean that naomi should go to heaven.
I was just saying that my mother is going to be 54. she has already wasted nearly half of her life on alcohol.
At the rate she is going i dont see her living past 60.
Not sure about 55. My mother has let us down 3 times already.
We had to send her to a psysiactric clinic. because the first time
she was throwing chairs at me and trying to burn me with her ciggarettes.
She smashed the window (on the door because theres a glass on the kitchen door) my bf was really lucky because i dont know how but he just said quick hide she is about to smash it.. and she did and my bf was lucky that he didnt get cut because he stood right infront of it.
The second time was when she started screaming and neighbours were complaining and she kept on saying she was going to kill her self
the third time where she really did nearly jump out of the window.
I screamed and she was nearly out and my bf just grabbed her and pulled her back in.
we called the ambulance and they took her away.
she kept on telling everyone it was a joke what she did.
As mean as my dad is, he keeps on taking her back when he sees her sober.
although soon enough she will start drinking again.
It took her only 3 weeks and she was back onto the bottle.
Now im stuck with everybody telling me including lawyers and doctors that they cannot do anyhing for her and that she has to want it.
The only way we can force her is by taking her to court.
and take her "adultness" away. which means she has to go to a therapy program for a year
I dont know which option to choose.
One part of me is "let her be happy if she wants to drink"
and the other part is "but i love my mum when she is sober i dont want her to go im only 18 and i still need her"
I am sure you have so much love for naomi that is unable to describe.
But i hope that naomi doesnt let you down as much as my mother did through out these whole years.
When you have so much love for someone, the patience is unlimited.
you just keep on forgiving them, untill something bad happens and you blame your self for it because you think you could have made it better.
Where as in reality, you couldnt have changed it in any other way.
If she was in a program under lock and key sooner, she would not have been in the car and trying to jump out.Originally Posted by valanhb
I'm so glad she's safe. It really does speak loads about her desire to get straight that she checked herself into a detox program, and wants to go into an inpatient program after detox. If she were taking you for a ride, she would have just come back home like nothing was wrong.
Addiction is such a strong pull, and heroin is stronger than a lot of people. Add bipolar and possible schitophrenia on top of it, and it's no wonder her body/mind let go even after the worst of the physical sickness was over. This isn't about giving her "permission" to go back to the city and shoot up. Just what was Gary supposed to do when she was trying to jump out of the car going 60 mph? Beat her into submission?
The problem here is that Naomi is not a minor, and legally there is nothing anyone, not even her biological parents, can do. Locking an adult into a padded room for as long as it takes to detox is legally kidnapping, and if Naomi were upset enough, she could rightfully and legally press charges once she had access to a telephone...if she survived the cold turkey quit. She was a "large" user of heroin, which makes a cold-turkey quit that much more dangerous, and she has had seizures that placed her in critical care during past detoxes.Originally Posted by Cirque
If she was in a program under lock and key sooner, she would not have been in the car and trying to jump out.
Has anyone considered doing it the old fashioned way and just locking her in a padded room for as long as takes so she can get it out of her system? Yeah its painful, yeah it sucks, and sure there is always the temptation to go back to the drug later (but thats always there).. but perhaps the memory of the experience would make an impression. She would have to "work" through it instead of going to sleep and waking up after a "rapid detox".
Perhaps I am just not feeling very understanding today or I do not fully understand herion (more likely), but I have seen people lie and use others so I suppose that has jaded me some. For me it comes down to actions not just words and "intent". Oh well, I am still wishing all the best for her and you two for trying to take care of her.
Fwan, I did misunderstand what you wrote, and I'm so sorry. Your post brought tears to my eyes too. Thankfully Naomi's never gotten violent with us, though it appears it could have been a possibility. I know, at least a little bit now, of the stress and fear and anger - and love - you've experienced. You are a wonderful daughter. I'm so sorry your mum hasn't found the strength to fight this.Originally Posted by fwan
I didnt mean that naomi should go to heaven.
I was just saying that my mother is going to be 54. she has already wasted nearly half of her life on alcohol.
At the rate she is going i dont see her living past 60.
Not sure about 55. My mother has let us down 3 times already.
We had to send her to a psysiactric clinic. because the first time
she was throwing chairs at me and trying to burn me with her ciggarettes.
She smashed the window (on the door because theres a glass on the kitchen door) my bf was really lucky because i dont know how but he just said quick hide she is about to smash it.. and she did and my bf was lucky that he didnt get cut because he stood right infront of it.
The second time was when she started screaming and neighbours were complaining and she kept on saying she was going to kill her self
the third time where she really did nearly jump out of the window.
I screamed and she was nearly out and my bf just grabbed her and pulled her back in.
we called the ambulance and they took her away.
she kept on telling everyone it was a joke what she did.
As mean as my dad is, he keeps on taking her back when he sees her sober.
although soon enough she will start drinking again.
It took her only 3 weeks and she was back onto the bottle.
Now im stuck with everybody telling me including lawyers and doctors that they cannot do anyhing for her and that she has to want it.
The only way we can force her is by taking her to court.
and take her "adultness" away. which means she has to go to a therapy program for a year
I dont know which option to choose.
One part of me is "let her be happy if she wants to drink"
and the other part is "but i love my mum when she is sober i dont want her to go im only 18 and i still need her"
I am sure you have so much love for naomi that is unable to describe.
But i hope that naomi doesnt let you down as much as my mother did through out these whole years.
When you have so much love for someone, the patience is unlimited.
you just keep on forgiving them, untill something bad happens and you blame your self for it because you think you could have made it better.
Where as in reality, you couldnt have changed it in any other way.
That was my reaction, too. My brother-in-law has paranoid schizophrenia. it is not an easy thing to deal with. The 2 months he lived with us one summer were really hard on me and my DH. It may seem easier than the drug addiction right now, but it really isn't. Do take care of yourselves.Originally Posted by jcat
Wow. I'm more bothered about the "paranoid schizophrenia" diagnosis than the heroin addiction, to tell you the truth. You and Gary will be in for a rollercoaster ride for the rest of your lives if she is really schizophrenic. We've been dealing with a family member who is schizophrenic for 23 years, and it simply uses up all your reserves. People have kicked heroin addictions, but schizophrenia is something that has to be kept under control with medications, and they have to be constantly adjusted. There doesn't appear to be any fail-safe "cure". I know this is going to sound harsh, but both of you are going to have to determine your individual "breaking points", and do everything you can not to exceed them. For your own sakes.