something i witnessed today...

OKay today has been my worst day ever.
In a year time my mum and dad will be divorced.
I went shopping and came home and mum was in an arguement with my dad..
She was really devestated and then she was crying.
at about 6:30 pm as she sat on the balcony thing that is like inside the house she just decided to get on her chair to jump out!
I screamed and ben grabbed her and pulled her back in!!!!!
I cant get the sight out of my eyes that she was going to kill her self.
We called the psysiactric house and they came and took her to hospital.
I am so scared because tday on the way home i saw this advertisement about a "pietat" planning your funeral thing..
She wants to be home for christmas but i dont know if they will let her out!
her alcohol level was 0.7 which isnt high but by the time she got to the hospital she had 0.6 8
Im just scared that she will kill her self again. i cant bear it that she will do it.
My dad said to let her jump, and i said that he would be charged with murder and so would i, if we witnessed her jump. I'm just glad that my bf was home at the time because i know i couldnt have saved her if i were by my self.
I love my mother too much, and the sad thing is i dont even consider my father as a father.

Then when i came home i couldnt come onto the cat site because my computer keeps on dying. So my bf took the computer appart and there was so much dust in there *throws up*
Now my screen is in black and white and its all messed. I have to reinstall or something But i hope to be back on with in the next hour with out any problems *rolleyes*

I really need to get it out because i have noone else to turn to at this moment.
I think i need to start seeing a psychologist.

What a horrible time you have had lately with your parents and all!
I wish I knew what to say.
Only that I am thinking of you and hoping your Mom can come home for Christmas and have a good time just being together.

Originally Posted by fwan

I think i need to start seeing a psychologist.

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I know you were probably joking when you said that...But that is so what you should do...I can't even fathom what you have been going through...and I can bet that you can'y fathom it either...you need to get it out of your system, and better it be to a person who is a perfessional listner...I am so sorry things are such a mess i will keep you and your mom in my thoughts.......good luck with this and keep us updated on your mothers hopeful recovery...all the best

Thank you guys

actually no i wasnt joking about seeing a psychologist. I will do it when i have enough money because they are not insured over here.
Most people actually ask how i am "normal" and being brought up with such crazy parents.
I just say that i got educated from school and friends :S

Wow looks like like you and me both had a bad day, but yours sounds far worse. I'm sorry that all this is happening right now!

Fwan I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this tough time. It had to be horrid for you to witness your Mom so desperate about her future that she tried to commit the ultimate act. I am glad that she is getting the help that she needs to get through this. It will be hard on you all but you can get through it. Please find a counsler somewhere that you can talk to for your own peace of mind.

We all care what happens and you can always vent to us. You take care of you right now

Aw Fwan, I'm sorry to hear about your bad day hun! I hope things look up.

Hon, seeing a therapist may be a really good idea right now. What you've seen has changed you. I once walked in on a friend attempting suicide so I understand some of what you're going through. Your mother needs severe help that you cannot give her and you really shouldn't be living in the same household that she is in. Please find a therapist and take care of yourself.

I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. It is so hard when someone you love is going through a crisis they just cannot handle. Please try to remember that you did nothing wrong, and you are not to blame. This is problem between your parents that you are stuck in the middle of.
Please do get some help for yourself. We at TCS are always glad to listen and offer advice and sympathy, but sometimes professional help is required. It is hard enough being a teenager without heavy family turmoil. Seeing a counselor or therapist is nothing to be ashamed of. If you don't want to go to either one of those, maybe you could try a minister or priest. Just PLEASE don't let this go on without some kind of help.
Keep us posted on how you are doing. I pray they improve for all of you.

oh no, that sounds like it must have been horrible. I've seen a few things that are glued into my mind because they were so traumatic. I'm sorry this is all happening right now, when everyone is supposed to be trying to be happy. At least you know you have all of us here, I hope that you can get your computer to be nicer

Prayers and to you and your family. It was selfish of your mother to do, but that's probably her way of crying out for help. I'm glad she's at the hospital, where hopefully, she'll receive the help she needs.

I am so sorry you saw that hon. Everyone here is right, you should see a counselor to help get you through this time. Isn't there any kind of social service where you are, that could get you counselling for free or at low cost?

Hopefully you mother is getting the help she needs right now! I hope that you never have to witness something like that again. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

What an awful thing to witness, and I"m so glad your mother is in the hospital. Hopefully she will get the help that she so desperately needs. And yes Fwan, as soon as you can, go talk to a counselor yourself. I think that is a great idea. But in the meantime, you know we are always here for you!

Oh honey.. I'm sorry and I do't like taking sides, but if your father said let her jump, he's possibly the cause of allyour mother's problems. With an attifude like that I'm concerned for your mental well being.. have you seen the lawyer about your living/working situation?

Oh Fwan - there must be someone you can talk to, a teacher (former if necessary) A minister or in the last resort call Samaritans, they will listen to anyone in trouble and can often suggest ways to get help. I do hope your mother improves soon and that you find peace of mind.

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Oh Fwan - there must be someone you can talk to, a teacher (former if necessary) A minister or in the last resort call Samaritans, they will listen to anyone in trouble and can often suggest ways to get help. I do hope your mother improves soon and that you find peace of mind.

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Yes Fwan, Jenny is so right. You don't have to pay to talk to someone, there are many counsellors out there to talk to who don't charge. The Samaritans is an excellent idea. You've had a lot of good advice from the others. I hope things get better for you soon.

Fwan, how about turning to a group like Al-Anon, for families of alcoholics? They're usually represented in most large cities, and if they can't help you themselves, they might be able to steer you to somebody who can. Or, as a few people have suggested, ask your pastor/priest for advice.

Here's an address for Frankfurt (unfortunately no phone number is given, but it might be in the phone book: Erwachsene Kinder von Alkoholikern (AL-ANON EKA)
c/o Frauenfriedenskirche
Zeppelinallee 101
60325 Frankfurt/M.

Another is: Al-Anon & Alateen Selbsthilfegruppen, Mo. - Sa. 18 - 21 Uhr,
Hasengasse 5, 60318 Frankfurt, Tel. 069/5975448

You could also call the U.S. Consulate and ask about Al-Anon groups for English speakers: Siesmayerstr. 21, 60323 Frankfurt, Tel. (069) 7535-0 or the
Australian Consulate General, Grünebergweg 58 - 62, 60322 Frankfurt, Tel. (069) 90558-200. There's no British Council in Frankfurt.