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post #121 of 197
Lauren,my prayers and thouts for you.. ;_;

Its horrible to loose a pet who looks like she is doing so well!
post #122 of 197
Lauren, I'm so sorry to hear that Ani has passed away. My heart breaks for you at this terribly difficult time. Ani is now at peace, she was not feeling well and is now ok and resting peacefully with Trent. They will always be a part of you and now Skylar needs you to be his mommy. Please take care of yourself.
post #123 of 197
OMG Lauren, I thought Ani was feeling better and it was a complete shock when I saw your thread had been moved to Crossing The Bridge. I am so very sorry for your loss, and my thoughts are with you and little Skylar at this very sad and difficult time.

Rest In Pease Ani
post #124 of 197
i'm very sorry for yor loss my heart fills for you please know im thinking of you and your in my prayers
post #125 of 197
Originally Posted by SnowLeop
Oh, Lauren, this is heartbreaking! I'm honestly crying as I write this. Please hug yourself and little Skylar for me, many many times.

I know you need to let yourself grieve but please remind yourself that you gave Ani what so many children and animals in this world don't have: a caring home and an immense amount of love. Your baby died in peace because she was so loved and cared for by you. I believe her soul is with Trent's now and that her love and gratitude is with you always.
post #126 of 197
Oh Lauren. Life must really seem unfair to you right now.

I felt sick to the stomach when I saw what section this thread was now, and I am sitting here at my desk at work crying

Ani will soar with Trent and together they will make mischief. *hugs*
post #127 of 197
I too was saddened to see this thread moved.

Lauren, please know that Ani is with Trent, and both are happy, healthy now, and patiently waiting for you. They are dancing in eternal sunshine now, and will dance in your heart the same way.

Much love to you. And hug Skylar, let him know you're there, and know that he's there for you now, too.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

post #128 of 197
I have been following this rollercoaster of a thread since it popped up......and i just now saw where it ended up...I am so sorry..I was so hopping she would pull through.....but i guess she is probably happy as she could be now that she can see her brother again.....all the luck a love in the world for you and Sky...i hope you two can help eachother through this terrible tragedy.....
post #129 of 197
Oh, Lauren! I'm at a loss for words. Completely stunned. I can only imagine the heartache you're going through. Poor Ani.
post #130 of 197
When I saw this thread in Crossing the Bridge I just started shaking my head and saying no no no. I can't believe this has happened, I am extremely sorry about your loss. If you need me I am here for you
post #131 of 197
I'm so sorry to hear about your precious baby. My heart just breaks for you. Mere words can't offer much comfort but I hope all the wonderful memories you have of your darling Ani will help you through this.
post #132 of 197
Oh Lauren....I just saw this thread.......God bless you.....I"m so sorry to read all of this.....your all in my thoughts and prayers........
post #133 of 197
Lauren girl, how are you? I know it isn't the most positive of times for you, but please remember we are ALL here for you as always. If you need to talk, vent, cry, yell, scream, or whatever, we are here. I know you've delt with a lot in the past few months. I know also you are very strong. I am thinking of you at this time. You and your baby Skylar.

post #134 of 197
What can I say, honey, things were looking up, but things like this are unpredictable. I'm sorry you've lost another baby, but at least they are together, taking care of eachother until you reach the bridge, healthy, and happy.

We love you honey, know that.
post #135 of 197
Dear Lauren, I am so sorry that Ani went to the bridge. I just now saw this, I don't know how I missed it before. I just want to tell you that I will be praying for you. My heart breaks for you dear, if there is anything I can do please PM me if you need to talk or anything. The only comfort I can offer is that now Ani and Trent are playing together at the bridge and someday you will see them again. Hugs to you and pets for Skylar during this sad time.
post #136 of 197
Thread Starter 
Hello Everyone ..

I know I haven't been here since this happened. I just really couldn't get any words together. I am barely able to talk about anything right now.
I do not have too much information as to what happened to
my girl .
The vet said that she felt that Ani and Trent were born to a litter that had some type of genetic problem(?) I don't know I don't understand. All I do know is that I love Ani and Trent as much as I ever could love anyone. They are my heart and my soul. They have been with me through so much. They are so much a part of me, and I cannot be more grateful for that.
When I lost Trent , I took Ani to the vet shortly after to make sure she's okay. Things looked good with her at the time. I believed, without a doubt, that I would have Ani for many, many years. I NEVER, EVER even thought she would get sick, not even a cold. It just couldn't happen after all that went on. After losing Trent, I believed that no one could possibly survive that pain again. I lost Trent in September, and I have lost my Ani, yesterday..just 3 months later.
Some say she held on for me. I try to believe that.
The vet said that without taking her for the other tests, there was no diagnosis. I had planned on taking Ani for her ultrasound as soon as my money came in. I felt it was my fault for waiting. I guess I still do It would have been today I watched Ani so closely over the past week. Each day she looked worse and worse. Eventually, in her last 36 hours, she stopped eating completely, stopped grooming, not responding to any of her meds. Sometimes, she was able to take her meds without vomiting immediately. Even then, there was no response. Continuous vomiting while eating nothing. So painful.. unbelievably painful.
I tried to sit with her & pet her, but she would hide underneath the bed in a corner. She would face the wall . She wanted me to leave her alone. I couldn't, but I tried my best to give her the space she needed. So, I would just sit on the floor next to her, and just be with her.

This is about all I could get out right now.
As each day passes, I believe I will get stronger. I didn't think I would make it through this time. I wanted to go away, and never come back. I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. I had never felt so completely hopeless in my entire life.
But, I have to move on. No matter how long it may take, I have to keep going. I have a new baby here, who needs my love.

I read all of your posts on my thread and each one touched me so deeply . The compassion and understanding that comes from the people here is nothing short of a miracle .

I send all my love and appreciation to you all..
I will be writing more. I just lose it at a certain point
post #137 of 197
Aaawwww... It hurts. It just hurts. Take the time you need to heal, but don't forget we've got tons of love and strength being sent to you right now. Your honesty, compassion, and love have made you many friends here. I know many people are just as shocked. We may not feel your exact pain, but I know for a fact that if any one of us were near you, we would be there in a sec.

as always before and always forever

I'm sorry. Just remember we are all here for ya. Pm me, or anyone, who ever is online at the time if you need to talk.
post #138 of 197
That's really rough that that happened to you, and so soon after Trent - we're all here for you and while some of us can't really say we understand, we're certainly willing to lend a shoulder or an ear.

I do think it's possible that Ani held on for you - that she made sure you had Skylar to look after before she left.

Please do not blame yourself... it was not your fault, especially not for waiting - so many of us would rather wait and see rather than spend a lot of money to find out that nothing was wrong.

Anyway, I know you have a lot of emotions to sort out but remember that we're here if you need to vent, and we care about you a lot!
post #139 of 197
Thread Starter 
I didn't want to have to wait for the next test I tried to move everything along as quickly as possible. I saw she was getting bad, and quickly...even with the one "up" day that she had.
When I called Red Bank Hospital for Animals, I would have had an appt. today, and my mother was going to loan me what I needed as extra. Ani couldn't hold on any longer. In my heart, I believe she left peacefully. I know there was a struggle for quite a few days, but in the end, she let herself go softly .
Wow.. this is tough to write. I haven't even talked about this out loud.

She was always such a smart girl. She amazed me. She just knew things. I remember I used to live with this guy whom Ani just did not like. No matter how much he tried to give Ani treats and help soothe her, she just did not like this guy. She would shake anytime he went near her. A few months later, I came to find out that this guy was a drug addict and was just not a good person for me to be around at all. A lot of lying and doing things behind my back. Being me, I tried to remain in denial about it. But, Ani..she was set against this guy all the way. After I found out all that was going on, I moved out with my kitties. Ani has always been the most friendly, loving cat. I had never before or since seen her react to a person the way she did with him. She was unbelievably clever. She is unbelievably clever Truly Amazing
I am blessed to have these kitties in my life for 7-8 years. If they really are my guardian angels, I could not feel more safe.
post #140 of 197
Originally Posted by AniSkyofTrent
they really are my guardian angels, I could not feel more safe.
Trust me, in life, as well as in afterlife... they ARE and always will be your guardian angels. You are one of the few who were lucky enough to have the chance to physically meet, and love them. I believe I've got a lot of animal guardians. From mice and rats, to ferrets, kitties, a cockatiel who passed away right before haloween (RIP my baby Arwyn boy), and a black n tan coon hound. They each guard different aspects of me.
post #141 of 197
My thoughts with you Lauren... ...
post #142 of 197
Oh, Lauren! I am so sorry! I just read today this unfortunate turn of events, and my heart breaks for you. As many have said already, this was so far from what we expected (and I'm sure you, as well ). You've had so much to deal with these last few months. My heart goes out to you and the pain you are in. Rest assured that your baby girl Ani is spending quality time with your little man Trent at the Rainbow Bridge, and they eagerly await the day that you all will be reunited. They are your guardian angels, and return the unconditional love that you so unselfishly lavished upon them.

You and Sky are in my heart and prayers. I know it hurts so very badly, worse than words could ever express, but hang in there. Sky is there to help you through this, and so are all of us here at TCS. Please always remember that.

When you look to the sky, I know you will always remember your angels, Ani and Trent I always remember mine.
post #143 of 197
Originally Posted by AniSkyofTrent
Some say she held on for me. I try to believe that.
I belive that. My Katie waited until Emma showed up until she finally relaxed and passed on out of my life. It amazes me how much these animals really love and care for us. I know you're heartbroken and trying to be brave. I wish I could take some of your pain.
post #144 of 197
Thread Starter 
Thank you so much for all your support and love. I am just stunned that I am here again, so soon after my loss of Trent. My heart hurts in such a way that I can't explain. I feel confused and scared. I question all the ways I have ever taken care of my sweeties. I believe I treated my babies with all the love I have. I loved them so much and there is no way they didn't see that. I hope they did see it. I didn't have a chance to say my goodbyes to Precious Ani I do my best to believe that when I write to her in my journal, she will hear my goodbyes. That baby will never know how much she has done for me. She kept me going when I didn't think I could last anymore. She is magical in every way This hurts just too much, just way too much. I don't know how to think about what has happened. None of it seems real.
When trent was sick, I knew he would be going. Those last 2 weeks with him are extremely dear to me. I feel blessed that I had that.
I didn't have that time with Ani
I will keep trying to get through this. My head is not completely together with all this yet. I still am not fully aware that she is gone. It's just so beyond me.

Ani, I love you so much, my precious girl.. I look up at the sky, and that allows me to see, where it is you may be..
Flying over me, with all your beauty, with all your grace.. I love you, My Angel.. My adorable sweet face...
Forever Your Mommy, You are a part of me..
post #145 of 197
Originally Posted by AniSkyofTrent
I question all the ways I have ever taken care of my sweeties. I believe I treated my babies with all the love I have. I loved them so much and there is no way they didn't see that. I hope they did see it.
You did treat them very well and I know they know that... you should not question how well you took care of them, I'm sure you were the best mommy you could be and you should try not to look back and doubt yourself. Ani was hurting and now she's not - now she's playing with her brother and looking down on you with love...
post #146 of 197

I have been away from TCS for about a week now, and I just came across your thread. The emotional rollercoaster you have had to deal with this past week has been a rough one. You are such a strong person and I thank you for sharing all the ups and downs with us. I am so very sorry for your loss and wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as well.
post #147 of 197
You will make it. It takes a day at a time. Once you are able to sort it out in your head, you will start healing again. Healing is a lifelong process.

I sympathise with you not getting to say bye to your girl. It hurts knowing it happened when you weren't expecting. She has heard your goodbyes, and she knows everything you are feeling.

While you are in a whirlwind of emotions, try to keep sight that we are all here.

As those emotions, denial, anger, hurt etc all start to let go of their grip on you, you will start to see things more clearly again. It's so rough for you to loose both of your babies in just 3 months. Siblings. Skylar is there now though.

Still here
post #148 of 197
Lauren you are still in my thoughts! Big hugs girlie!
post #149 of 197
Hugs to you, Lauren. It's so hard to understand sometimes. Life isn't always easy, is it? The only thing that you can take comfort in right now is to know that you did take care of both of them the best that anyone could.
post #150 of 197

Lauren, I am so very, terribly sorry. I can only imagine. My arms are not big enough to comfort you in this type of loss. The only thing I do know is that Ani-kooky is there on your shoulder, whether you see her or not. Keep your faith. She is there with Trent.
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