sad post

i posted here a while ago (in sep) because i was angry at my dad for him kicking the cat outside after we moved. you guys suggested that i bring her to a shelter or i take extremely good care of her while she was outside. well i did take good care of her. i fed her everyday. but today something terrible happened to me. she was missing for weeks and i thought she ran away but i went out to look for her one last time and this time i found her. she was lying under the deck...she was dead. it looked as if she'd been there a while. i am terribly sad. it breaks my heart. i blame myself for not bringing her to a shelter like you said. i also take responsibility for not pleading with my dad more to take her back in. i only pleaded once. and its also my fault because my mom who doesn't live with us offered to take her but i didn't want her to leave us. my dad said she was hit by a car and made her way back to the deck. i really hope she didn't suffer. i make a big deal about this because when you don't have many real friends, it's nice to rely on a companion who will give you unconditional love and thats why i loved this cat so much. it's angered me all this time that she was outside...i can't blame my dad though.. he didn't know this was going to happen. im really going to miss her


i hope no one is angry at me...
i tried my best to take care of her



RIP ROXY

Nov 2003 - Dec 2004

We could never be angry with you, this was not your fault! You took care of her the best you could and you loved her and I'm sure she knew that. Please don't beat yourself up about this, it wasn't your fault, it was a sad thing to be sure, but you had nothing to do with this.

Oh Sweetie.. My heart breaks for you. The pain you feel must be horrendous. All my love is with you.. I wish I could say magic words to make it all better, but unfortunately... there are none..
It takes time, and each day you will begin to feel stronger. Try not to blame yourself. I believe things happen the way they are supposed to (one way or another). I know that doesn't help right now, but it's what gets me through..
You have all my love and support. I am terribly sorry that you had to experience this

Dont blame your self.
Although it does raise a suspicion about your dad mentioning that she got hit by a car...

Can i ask why he kicked her out of the house?
i had to lose some of my kitties because people were *&(*^&%^$^%$(*&^^& to my cats! and some of them were only 3 months old! :

Babe, you did your best and you loved Roxy with all your heart, and that's the most important thing you can give to anyone or any animal. It was just her time. God works in myterious ways - I like to look at it like this. God doesn't take any soul who's time hasn't come. Roxy won't have suffered as long as she had your love in her heart. Don't blame yourself, because fate - although it's cruel - has it's own reasons for doing what it does. The reasons might not be apparent at this time, but all will become clear in time. You loved Roxy and she loved you too - she will always be with you. People we love and lose, never really leave us. As long as you keep them in your heart and remember them, they'll live forever. God bless you sweetie.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Roxy is at the Rainbow Bridge now, and will forever know you as the person who cared for her...

Out of respect for her, I will move this to the Crossing the Bridge forum.

Hugs to you, I am so sorry for your loss, and I am not mad, nor is anyone else I don't think. This is NOT your fault, your father is the one who put the cat outside, not you. You took care of her the best you could given the situation. She will be waiting for you at the bridge, and someday you will be together again.

I remember you posting about Roxy. You did what you could and loved her. Dont blame yourself - these things happen. she was loved and will be waiting for you

All we can ever do in our lives is what we think right at the time. You thought it right to keep Roxie near you and that was the correct decision. Things happen for a reason, although we may never know what that reason is. Cats come into and out of our lives in order to teach us, I think. I, too, lost a cat under mysterious circumstances and to this day think the neighbors had something to do with it. That loss has made me a much more protective cat guardian. Roxie has left you stronger as well. You loved her and she loved you. Cherish her memory.

I'm so sorry you had to go through this - it can't have been easy finding Roxy like that. It's so true what the others have said. You made the decision that you thought was the best one - you did it with the best of intentions and it came from a heart that was clearly filled with love for Roxy. I'm sure she knew this because even in her worst hour she came back home.

Even though the hurt will ease, you will always carry Roxy with you in your heart.

Oh Dear Roxy R.I.P. sweet angel.