Michele, your new piece will be a memoir, not a journal or a day-by-day account. Memoirs have their own beauty, I think, precisely because they are full of the holes and distortions that are part of an imperfect memory. In the end, you may end up with a more meaningful document of your journey with Pengy. Please don't cry. You are a good writer and I think you can produce a beautiful account of your progress with Pengy.