You guys please.....
First of all, you honor me with your words and the fact that you thought enough to post them here. Second of all, you drove me to tears again in sharing what you have shared here. Though tears are not far away from me right now.
I know to some I come across as heavy-handed. I am more an animal person than I am a people person. At a party, I am the shy one sitting in the corner trying to melt through the floor. But with my animals I feel contentment and love and fulfillment. I have no problem in helping others with their questions if I know the answers. If I don't know the answers, I usually know how to find out who does.
In a few weeks I approach a painful anniversary. It will be 28 years to the day my son was taken from me and he crossed the Bridge. I know that in my heart, what helps when I have to say goodbye to a special friend, is the thought that Jeremy Ryan is up there and he is a big part of me, and I hope also a big part of what was good about his father. He is there to greet all the animals and I believe that one day we will all be reunited and together again. That keeps me going.
Thank you all for your kindness, you have no idea how much it has meant to me to come here and read this board. My healing lies still in continuing to help others, to encourage those who are even entertaining keeping an inside outside cat NOT to. If these cats weren't feral, and there weren't so many of them, I would keep them all inside. But it is not possible. I cannot watch over them 24/7 at one point, I have to trust that they know what is safe and what is not. Again, I do not know why Blink was in the road, we will never know. All we know is now this bright and shining angel is shining elsewhere, and I have to hope making a young man laugh with all her insistent headbumps.