good evening, I have posted several times on this site sand everyone is very helpful. I don't know if anyone is feeling the way that I do; we take care of 8 feral cats and had 9 but one was hit by car. they do not allow us to touch them and run off a lot but other days they do allow us to get some close. they have come inside and walk around. they range is ages of almost 2 years old to 8 months. I have a lot of anxiety over these cats and so protective over them, I am afraid of losing another one or one getting sick and not being able to help, because we cant touch them. our only female cat, who we recently got fixed, her third eye has been showing a few days. I did ALOT of reading and it means that she is sick, I have been giving her lysine chews and ordered lysine power to give her and the rest of the cats but I am so scared of something bad happening to my ferals. we love them so much and have done so much for them and spend a lot of money on them to make them happy. we are looking into having our yard fully fenced to keep them away from cars and animals. is it normal to be this attached to the feral cats and they depend on us to take care of them, I am hesitant to go away on vacation because I don't know who will feed them! I don't know if it has to do with losing my mom 5-29-16 to cancer and I am afraid to lose them. they have brought me so much laughter and they are and were therapy for me when my mother became very ill. how do I stop stressing over them and I'm so scared that something bad will happen. I'm afraid to wake up one morning and one be missing. the original cat is sick with this third eyelid issue. any advise to help me calm down