One year ago tonight Sebastian died in my arms.......

It was November 23rd last year when I came home and found Sebastian who was very sick tangled in the mini blinds, and when I finally got him untangled he died in my arms. It was one of the most horrific things that ever happened to me in my life, not only with pets, but with anything. We were trying to nurse him back to health, but it was his time to go and he actually waited until I got home so I could hold him so he didn't die alone, and now looking back I think that was so very sweet of him, the bond was so very strong, I was always the one that took him to the vet, and over the last 3 weeks of his life we grew closer as I had to take him many times. It messed me up mentally for quite awhile, I even talked to my pastor and a friend who is a psychologist about it, and they both told me it would take about 1 year, maybe a bit longer, to get over it, and they were right; today is a year, and while I look back at it now it still of course bothers me, but I know he is just fine with all our other pets who have passed and are now playing and having fun at the Rainbow Bridge. And when I get feeling badly about it or anything really I just go pick up Sylvester whom we took in 9 months ago who looks like a 50/50 blend of Sebastian and Simon who passed May 2014, and I hold him and hug him and kiss his head, and it feels like I am holding all three at the same time.

The lesson here is to those who helped me on this site THANK YOU, thank you for caring and listening and understanding, and I now try to help others here who have lost cats and feel so low like they think they are going to die themselves, it DOES get better, hearts do heal but it takes time, and maybe they don't heal fully like they were before but like the saying goes "it is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all".

We'll see you again some day "Sea bee", we love you forever and know that you are doing just fine....thanks for guiding me to Sylvester, he is doing well now too. 

I am happy that you were guided to a new friend.  It's a wonderful tribute to Sebastian that you opened your heart to a new cat.  Our friends who have crossed the Bridge will always be loved and never lost.

My heart is with you on this sad anniversary. I've no doubt that Sebastian brought Sylvester to you. He knew that you both needed each other. Sebastian IS happy and running free over the Rainbow Bridge and he continues to keep a good watch over you and Sylvester.
I want to thank you les26 for sharing your feelings, advice and experience with others as they navigate grief of the loss of their beloved cats. I know that your words and wisdom are of comfort to those in the acute stages of grief. [emoji]10084[/emoji]️

I was heartbroken when you told us your story about Sebastian. RIP sweet boy

Zed Xyzed said:

 
I was heartbroken when you told us your story about Sebastian. RIP sweet boy

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Thank you. I see that I joined last November, and that was to ask some questions about him when he was sick, and a short time after that he was gone. But his memory lasts forever, and Sylvester is part of his legacy, one door closed and the other one opened and he filled that void left behind. Tonight I picked him up, hugged him and kissed his head, and said to Deb "he knows what happened, we found in each other in the darkness, in dark times, and came through to the light and good times", and he just purred and let me hold him for a long time, like Sebastian used to, you couldn't hold him anymore your arms got tired, he would love to be held, and like I said when I hold Sylvester it is like I am holding Sebastian and Simon again too.....

Gone, but never forgotten.....

My heart goes out to you, I know how much these anniversaries hurt. It definitely helps to have those who understand surround you with their love and empathy, we all share the grief in this big family here at this site. I want to thank you also for coming back here and comforting others with your kind words and sincere condolences, you will never know how much you have helped. My one wish is that all of our precious little ones can feel how much we love and miss them, this world is an emptier place without them in it. Heaven has gained a precious treasure. 

I am finally getting some time to post this, but I wanted to let you know something that happened to me related to Sebastian and his history, and also shows to me that pets and people can and do "communicate" with you from the afterlife. Deb and I like to play a game when we are driving, I ask her what musical group will be playing on a radio station, we both guess and then I click on the station to see if we got it right, and sometimes we do! Well, last year, shortly after he passed, we were driving somewhere and playing the game, and I just blurted out "Steve Miller, jet airliner" without almost thinking about it, and sure enough that was not only the artist but the exact song too! Deb and I were amazed, she said "that is kind of spooky that you knew the exact song", and I just kind of smiled and said "I think I had some help from a certain black cat", giving Sebastian full credit of course, he knew that would make me smile. Well, fast forward to this past Wednesday night, 1 year to the day that he passed, I was going out to pick up some supper for us, got in her car, turned the radio on to the station that she had on, and sure enough, playing was Steve Miller "jet airliner"....I just looked skyward and laughed and said "hi buddy, good one!!!".

Think what you may, but I believe......

I believe too...... When I cried to the heavens and asked for a sign my Chrissy was safe, and that star blazed sideways across the skies, I believed.....Leave it up to my little girl to do it in such a big way! I'm sure both of them are trying to tell us they are still with us, I could never believe that such a strong love could just go with them, it just changes into something we feel with our hearts. Just be so very grateful for every day we got to spend with them, it is precious beyond compare.