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This summer we lost two good cats, Charlie and her sister Etta. Charlie was first noticeably ill July 11 and the diagnosis was probably some kind of cancer. We brought her home for a few more days of sitting in the window and pets. She was gone by the 23rd of July. Days later, I noticed Etta was ill and we tried very hard to help her but it was probably cancer as well.
For me when I washed the dish they last used, the blanket they last slept on, it is really tough. Yesterday I brought Etta's ashes home. I feel better that she's back here, but I really want a do over. I tell myself that her last day she couldn't really breath well and that had to be terribly scary to her. I know I made the right decision. It's just that I wish it didn't happen.
I know that our pets have shorter lives that us and that it's part of the deal we make. But I miss them. I miss Charlie's aqua blue eyes and her cute little personality. Sometimes I think I see her in her favorite room.
I really miss Etta's wise presence and her quirky personality. A day or so after she was gone, I had to change the litter box she used and even that was sad. I feel like every day there's something else that erases her presence more. Today I ran across the frozen portions of chicken that I ground up in the baby bullet for her.
It's not like losing pets is new to me either. Every day they are there, part of your life and then they just are not.
I don't feel like I failed her. I know I tried very hard to help her get well. I know I didn't take unnecessary steps that clearly wouldn't have made a difference given how quickly things went down hill for her. But my heart is still broken.
For me when I washed the dish they last used, the blanket they last slept on, it is really tough. Yesterday I brought Etta's ashes home. I feel better that she's back here, but I really want a do over. I tell myself that her last day she couldn't really breath well and that had to be terribly scary to her. I know I made the right decision. It's just that I wish it didn't happen.
I know that our pets have shorter lives that us and that it's part of the deal we make. But I miss them. I miss Charlie's aqua blue eyes and her cute little personality. Sometimes I think I see her in her favorite room.
I really miss Etta's wise presence and her quirky personality. A day or so after she was gone, I had to change the litter box she used and even that was sad. I feel like every day there's something else that erases her presence more. Today I ran across the frozen portions of chicken that I ground up in the baby bullet for her.
It's not like losing pets is new to me either. Every day they are there, part of your life and then they just are not.
I don't feel like I failed her. I know I tried very hard to help her get well. I know I didn't take unnecessary steps that clearly wouldn't have made a difference given how quickly things went down hill for her. But my heart is still broken.