so it came ...and went ....the very first anniversary of losing my wobbles

last Thursday 8/18/16 was the first anniversary of losing my baby...i miss him more than i ever imagined i could miss someone...i still cry every.single.day.
I wish so much he and Georgie would visit me but they never ever do...Im jealous of other people that get to tell stories if having their furbabies come to see mommy...i guess i was more in love with them than they were with me and maybe i made our connection out to be strongeri in my imagination that it really was....I love you Wobbles (and of course you too Georgie) and life without  you is a nightmare

I'm so sorry that the anniversary of losing your Wobbles has brought fresh pain and sadness. Don't lose faith that your Wobbles and Georgie didn't love you as much as you love them. Though you've not had any visits from them that you are aware of, I'm certain that both are keeping a close eye on you, their forever mommy. Their love for you is endless. What you felt and "imagined" was real. For me, when I have a sad anniversary of sorts coming up, I try to do something, even something small like indulging in a cupcake, to commerate that day and to celebrate the joy that event may have at one time brought me. Do something nice for yourself. Be kind to yourself. I'm confident that both Wobbles and Georgie would want you to be kind to yourself and find some peace [emoji]10084[/emoji]️

When that awful day comes around it is so crushing and the pain floods back. I am sorry you lost you lost your boys, just because you didn't see them in a dream it doesn't mean that they aren't with you; that bond of love can never be broken and I am certain that they are with you in some way.. 

It's okay to still cry. I feel your pain. I am sorry that your baby is no longer on this earth. One of the worst things about cats is having to say goodbye to them. My apartment is so empty without my sweet darling who died on Monday.

Slufferk said:

It's okay to still cry. I feel your pain. I am sorry that your baby is no longer on this earth. One of the worst things about cats is having to say goodbye to them. My apartment is so empty without my sweet darling who died on Monday.

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Ouch. That tugged at me. I'm sorry for your loss. The immediacy of the pain is horrific. It WILL ease, but will take a while

Wobbles and Georgie ARE still with you,  the love you have for them it is no longer a physical thing but rather spiritual. Instead of a physical sign, they are sending their love and comfort along the path that is formed from the bond you have forged with them, and that love is to be felt rather then seen. You are having dreams they are sending you for comfort and don't remember them on awakening. I'm sure because the love you have for these sweet babies is way too strong to be gone now, it cannot just disappear, it will remain with you for the rest of your life.  If you had been the one to go, you would never want them to be so sad and grieve for the rest of their lives. You would want them to go on with their lives and fill it with happiness and love once again, just as they want for you now. Just as in cat time, a year is not long at all, I still think of my Chrissy, and cry at times, 4 years later. But time has a way of softening the edges, it is the great healer of broken hearts, but there will always be a scar there to remind us of our loss. You were NOT 'more' in love with them, those two precious souls shared your love and hold you more dearly then you will ever know. You cared for them, and loved them as a mommy would, for that they will always love you. Don't beat yourself up over something you had no control over. You have to try to suppress the negative feelings you have to let their positive feelings of love come through. You must let sunshine back into that heart of yours where they dwell now, they deserve no less. You have to try to open your heart once again to another love, like a mother with many children, it is different, but it IS love. And love is what you need to feel better about yourself and to know in your heart that Georgie and Wobbles have never left you and have been there all along.  They are at peace now, let that continue by finding peace in your heart.They will always be with you, you have to believe that, and they love you more than life itself, that is a fact. I wish I could take away your pain, I wish things could have been different. But the past is just that, and there is nothing we can do about it. We just have the present to form our future, and with the help of those who understand our pain it is a little easier learn to love again. You will be blessed for hurting so bad from loving so much, take care.......PS. I want you to know I think of you often, and pray for you just as much. Your pain is so great I have felt it often in the past and cry for what you are going through,keep your chin up and know there is light at the end of the tunnel, you have to believe that, and that someone cares.      

Please don't feel that way.  Your cats loved you.  It's not something you imagined.  Think of the happy times you spent together.  You made your cats lives special.  You were their world.

They are forever in your heart always!  Keep their spirits alive.  When the right pet comes along you will fall in love all over again and heal <3     They have so much to teach us...

Than you all for your comforting words...I am sorry I haven't said ti sooner, it just has been to painful to  do much these past few weeks...the loss of Wobbles is so intense ...I am coping the best I can and hope he knows how sorry I am and how much i miss him