I am livid. For many reasons. The first of which I joined a few months ago. My cat Darragh was pregnant. I was broke. She was too far along by the time I realized to have done anything about it anyway. I looked and searched for some help. Finally found someone who said that she'd help me w/the kittens. She kept emailing me periodically to check on them. But time kept passing and nothing. She kept insisting that the vet recommended that they be weaned and stuff and the milk dried up before she could do anything to help. But the next thing you know I'm coming up on 12 weeks, that was 4 weeks ago, and still nothing. Now it's been about 3 weeks since I emailed her pleading with her desperately to help me. One of my friends agreed to take them both, then a couple days before his birthday, about a week ago, I told him I'm bringing you two furry birthday presents. He said he only wanted them if they'd been fixed. I'm like WHAT?! I can't do it. I don't have the money. I've got no more benefits in NYC where I just relocated from. I have a serious sleep disorder and am unable to sleep at night at all. I'm still awake b/c I've not even gone to sleep yet. I'm tired, sick, have chronic pain and fatigue. Have tried getting used to them, but it's now 4 mos. My cat Darragh hasn't even weaned them. My apt. is kinda small so separating them is difficult.
But this morning they wrecked my living room completely. And I was so mad I wanted to kill them. I love cats. They were born in my house on the 15th of April, but their presence here isn't pleasant. I'm so miserable. Shoo them away from me and my desk,kick them out of my room as well as barricade myself in my room. And many of the low-cost spay/neuter things are much too far and/or difficult for me to get to. I've looked at all the resources, most of which I found on here.
I am trying to begin a freelance business or I can't even afford to eat or pay my bills, let alone feed. Them. I live in Newark NJ. Is there anyone who can help??? I have been thinking of them as my grandkitties. But the longer they remain, the more of a strain it is on my life. But they've made me so angry, upset, and shaky this morning that I've decided that I simply hate them. I'm sorry if I sound awful. I'm not. Just tired, sick, in pain, and frustrated. I love cats. But I was seriously upset about having kittens in my life again. And I've not bonded with them at all. Just want them gone. I just want them away from me. I have a storage space on the side of my apt. as I live on a 3rd floor of a house and it's like an attic. So I barricaded them in there with their food dishes so I could have some peace and get them out of my sight.
Last week my first floor neighbor said she'd try to do something to help, she's a cat person too. But I haven't seen or heard anything yet.
I know it's a long shot, but could someone please help me? I really don't want to have to take my grandkitties to a shelter. I can't stand the idea of anyone killing them. Although they're awful cute and give furry fives, so they'd probably be first in line to be adopted. Plus they're young. I almost wish I'd never even taken Darragh in now b/c then I wouldn't be in this situation. :-(
But I love her so much.
Sincerely,
Gothceltgirl
But this morning they wrecked my living room completely. And I was so mad I wanted to kill them. I love cats. They were born in my house on the 15th of April, but their presence here isn't pleasant. I'm so miserable. Shoo them away from me and my desk,kick them out of my room as well as barricade myself in my room. And many of the low-cost spay/neuter things are much too far and/or difficult for me to get to. I've looked at all the resources, most of which I found on here.
I am trying to begin a freelance business or I can't even afford to eat or pay my bills, let alone feed. Them. I live in Newark NJ. Is there anyone who can help??? I have been thinking of them as my grandkitties. But the longer they remain, the more of a strain it is on my life. But they've made me so angry, upset, and shaky this morning that I've decided that I simply hate them. I'm sorry if I sound awful. I'm not. Just tired, sick, in pain, and frustrated. I love cats. But I was seriously upset about having kittens in my life again. And I've not bonded with them at all. Just want them gone. I just want them away from me. I have a storage space on the side of my apt. as I live on a 3rd floor of a house and it's like an attic. So I barricaded them in there with their food dishes so I could have some peace and get them out of my sight.
Last week my first floor neighbor said she'd try to do something to help, she's a cat person too. But I haven't seen or heard anything yet.
I know it's a long shot, but could someone please help me? I really don't want to have to take my grandkitties to a shelter. I can't stand the idea of anyone killing them. Although they're awful cute and give furry fives, so they'd probably be first in line to be adopted. Plus they're young. I almost wish I'd never even taken Darragh in now b/c then I wouldn't be in this situation. :-(
But I love her so much.
Sincerely,
Gothceltgirl
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it can be overwhelming when you lack resources for help.
